One girl revolution.

HML.

2009-12-29T14:13:00.002+08:00

Seriously.
What is family.
I feel like i'm being tortured by them every waking minute.
Overprotective much.

KOREAN KOREAN.... EWWWWWWW.

2009-12-13T18:05:00.003+08:00

ZOMG.
Today i went to babysit people to see the Brown Eyed Girls.
BIMBOZZZ.
But anyway it was crowded as hell and i swear there WERE boys there.
And they were like screaming the girls names and stuff. :P
I mean the only reason why they are there is obvious.
But i was thinking to myself, good luck Singaporeans. XD
Oh well.
Still not impressed.
Seeing them in person and only signing a few people's poster's.
Pathetic.
D Archie signed everyone's CD.
What a darling. :)
And the location was stupid.
COMMON.
4th floor of Orchard Central.
OH WOW.
Great way to escape you know.
I hear that mall's lift is TOTALLY fast.
The people who organized this SHIZ was totally unprepared.
Oh well.
Almost half of my sunday to do my own stuff like playing guitar is gone.
CRAP.

And today at HMV,313.
The Humanoid Deluxe CD by Tokio Hotel, For Your Entertainment Cd by Adam Lambert, The Fame Monster CD by Lady GaGa and Battle Studies CD by John Mayer WERE STARING AT ME IN THE FACE...
AND I DIDN'T BUY A SINGLE ONE.
FREAKKIN UGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bought Mel the Tokio Hotel one for her B'dae.
But i didn't feel obliged to buy it cause she had it...
I FEEL HORRIBLE. X(
I THINK I MIGHT DIE.
Haha.
Now people you know what to buy me for Christmas! ;)
Top priority goes to Tokio Hotel & Lambert.

I'm so dead beat.
Sleepin early and guitaring for the rest of the day!
Can't wait for Lena hon to come over tomorrow!
LOVES.

2009-12-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

Feeling so out of place.

Losing it?

2009-12-03T23:24:00.001+08:00

Massive headache.
I'm not sure i can distinguish friends now too...
God i hope it's not happening to me.
Don't be so unreasonable you princess!

2009-11-28T11:54:00.009+08:00

Hey everyone!
This post today is especially dedicated to my dear ASTROBOY!!! :)
Haha.
Happy birthday dude! :)
Hope you have an awesome day.

Dinner and Desert Chinese Restaurant & The Mind Cafe at Purvis Street

Apple Tea!

Apple Crumble!

Precious.

2009-11-26T14:24:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone!
I'm craving doughnuts. :D
Anyway.
Since christmas is coming i thought i'd post this.
I just found this vid recently.
Of Archie and his mum singing Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas.
It's just so touching!
And his mum sings really well as does Archie. :)
But i just wonder where all her height went to.
Haha.
Enjoy!!!

I want it to keep getting better.

2009-11-24T19:41:00.001+08:00

I think i should have hugged you yesterday.
Cause you deserve much more than a wave & a smile.
Next time.
And thank you, again. :)

2009-11-22T15:59:00.002+08:00

Being quarantined kinda is soooo troublesome.
I even have to worry about how to ask if i wanna go out for a class bbq!
It's not even as if i'm asking to go clubbing!!!
Which i don't.
FYI.

Yeterday I met John Mayer and Corbin Bleu.
OMG I KNOW RIGHT.
Haha.
Just kidding.
Well two people very simliar to them and another girl. :)
Apparently we knew them since kids.
But frankly i can't remember.
But somehow they did.
Oh well.
Even as kids we made a huge impact right sis??? XD
HOHOHO!
Well the two boys have definitely grown and they are REALLY AWESOME at the guitar.
LIKE SUPER MAJOR.
Really. :)
And their sister is really PRETTY.
ALSO LIKE SUPER MAJOR.
And i love her hair, and she's just really nice. :)
SWEET!
I felt pretty demoralised at first surrounded by awesomeness.
Overall in the end, i think it was a pretty great reunion.
More like a start of new friendships.
Since i kinda didn't recognise them still.
Yes yes i feel very guilty. :(

Anyway.
As a result, i stayed up really late last night and my eyes are failing me this very instant.
But i think i'll just sleep early today. :)
I'm out!

2009-11-15T14:33:00.003+08:00

Ah.
I'm so tired.
Just so SUPER tired.

Come to think of it after all this time.
I never saw that book he wrote.

Time to bake.
Everyone could use a cookie with so many lectures tomorrow. :)

Wipe away the tears of sadness.

2009-11-14T11:48:00.002+08:00

Hey whoever reads my blog!
I'm not in absolutely high spirits but i think i'll manage.

I just told my parents my results.
And well my dad i know he's upset but encouraging.
But knowing my mum she immediatly went into her 'I have so much to say!' nonsense.
Well at least she has something to say though it's not good and my legs will have scars.
The only other time she talks is when she wants to use her credit card or do anything (UGH) korean.
Yes i'm the only one in the family who retained.
I've accepted the fact.
I know she is going to go on later about how stupid i am and what a disgrace i am.
What can i do but sit down and listen...
To a person who only scolds me when i do something wrong.
The first thing would just be to scold.
For her maybe it doesn't work any other way.
But FYI, for it me doesn't work that way.
But what can i do?
Raise my fist in fury shouting about how you only bother when my results are bad or do something wrong?
I never do anything right isn't it?

Do you want to know why i gave up playing the piano?
Do you also want to know what it's like to have a very talented sister to match up to?
You say you want to learn to play the piano if you had the chance?
Sure go ahead.
See how easy it is to try tolerating people saying 'Oh that's a song you're playing? Why does it sound like it's in bit's and pieces?'
IT'S CALLED PRACTISING DOOSHEBAGS.
If you haven't realised.
I'm not my sister.
I can't play your KOREAN music by EAR OKAY GRANDMA?
As loving as you are.
I HATE IT WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN APPRECIATE MY EFFORT WHEN I'LL ACTUALLY PLAY FOR YOU.

Honestly i wonder what family i have when everything is so broken?
But a few days ago i realised that guardian angels do exist in times where you just feel like everything is crashing down on you...

Girls first:

Julaiha: Thank you for the words of encouragement. Even though i must say they are in a very nerdy way but it is also very mature and full of understanding making me feel very comforted. Love you!

Wen Xuan: Haha. You and your weird Er Hu. Thanks for trying to cheer me up and just like Julaiha and suggest ways in which i can improve. And offering to come over and study with me! :) I'm touched!

Chelsea: For crying with me and providing me with tissue!!! AND FOR BEING SO SUPERBLY PREPARED AND OPTIMISTIC FOR THIS. HAHA. Everything will be okay yea? I know it will be. We'll get through this together! Just don't leave school! :)

Josephine: DARLING! :D Thanks for always coming to me and hugging me when i was crying or sick like and crying along with us for no apparent reason! :P Your simple gesture just makes it all so much better!

Pirinitaa: Well waddaya know. Spongebob came to save me. :) Thanks for offering to help me especially whenever i am sick or look like i'm going to faint. And when you say you understand what i'm going through, i truly know you do.

CK: For hugging me and looking sooo blur. BUT CUTE. Even that made me feel like giggling! :)

Zi Hui: I BLAME YOU FOR MY CRYING YESTERDAY! Haha. XD BUt you know i love you right? Thanks for hugging me and knowing that the thought of leaving friends was even sadder than our results. :) Don't leave school ke yi ma? Wo hui xiang nian ni! X(

Pamela: Haha. For being and awesome daughter, and the Ít runs in the family.' thing. Like how awesome is that? :) Thanks for cheering me up tenfolds!!! Hai zi!!!

Elena: BABE!!! I owe you so much! From calling me to texting me, to offering to let me sleep and cry at your place! :) I LOVE YOU LOADS. When you spoke to me on the phone the previous night, you just calmed me down so much and i felt as if i had a third sister sitting next to me talking to me. All your 'Vicky's!' and hugs made me feel so insanely happy! :)

Xue Ying: For making me realise that there actually someone quite similar to me. And you made me feel so much better and also inspired me to not give up. :) And you're just really super nice la! :) Kind of like a bigger sis! Hehe.

Shu En: You waited for me!!! Which was quite unexpected! :) But i'm so eternally happy! You're the closest friend i have to a piece of MG home and having someone who understands the MG way and whatever, i'm super gald that you were around to cheer me up and understand how i feel. LOVE YOU! :)

Xiu Hui: For the unexpected offering of a shoulder after not being that close and all. :) I'm very touched by your kind offer! :)

Aticca: For your deep words of wisdom.*rubs chin* Haha. :)

To all the drama babes: FOR CARING ABOUT ME. :) I love you guys.

Boys:

Actro: You like kinda came out of nowhere like ASTROBOY. Haha. But thanks for being like so calm and relaxed all the time it kind of rubbed off on me. :) And your really weird and funny attempts at trying to cheer me up. It worked! :)

Naing Oo: LIKE OMG. HAHA. Thanks for always being so electrifyingly exciting anf funny! I always look forward to chinese to bitch with you so i forget all the other shit of the world. I love your Ýa's'and ÓMGs!' and you never fail to brighten my day when you call me Baby V!!! XD

JJ: Hey! I've got so much to thank you for. I think i owe you more than just wish coupons! HAHA. I'm so eternally grateful that you showed up at NTU and talked things over with me. Like really a lot. I don't think i've told anyone that much nonsense about home in such a humorous but serious way. It allevaited the pain and your cute face made me feel like laughing every 5 seconds! It's not a bad thing really. I really liked it. XD Thanks for your funny, adorable and sometimes practical suggestions. AND ALSO for following me around everywhere like a body guard till i got home. I knew i wasn't alone. You're INCREDIBLY SUPERBLY sweet!!! XOXO. HEE!

It's been an insane and emotional ride for me this week.
To everyone else who made it so much better.
Thank you sooo much. :)
Right now i feel like personally giving all of you a hug.
But i'm stuck in this stupid home of mine and well.
I reckon it'll be this way for a while. :(
Feel free to come visit me though!
Hint hint. ;)
And congrats to the people of 09S03 who did make it up one step ahead!
Good on you!

I hope the rest of the days this year won't be so tormented.
Knowing you guys have my back and He is always with me. :)
Just one prayer away.
See you guys!
Hopefully before the penguins get back,
I'll be waterproof. :)

Serving time.

2009-11-09T15:14:00.003+08:00

Punishing myself.
I don't deserve anything.
Not till i earn something.
When i work hard, then do i truly deserve something.
Everyone is wrong about me.
I'm not hardworking.
I'm not.
Maybe the only thing i've worked hard for is PW and Bio after Mr Chang arrived.
But then it was still too late.
I just thought i was doing everything the right way.
But i wasn't.

To Julaiha and Wen Xuan.
Sorry i had to bail at the last minute.
They wanted me at home...
And i have to study.

And as for the the class outing,
same goes.
I'm sorry i can't show even though it's the last.
I'm pretty sure it'd be awkward after all that.
It is already awkward enough in school that i'm actaully thankfull that there are no more chinese classes.
And to the birthday boy,
Happy birthday!
Hope you enjoy eating a lot and well just have an awesome time. :)
I'm sorry i can't be there on your special day.
I'm sure it would be equally special without me. :)
I'm fine.
Don't worry!

Well now.
Time to atone for my sins.
See ya 09S03.

End and Start.

2009-11-07T00:31:00.005+08:00

Yes.
A few hours ago.
All the hard work and tiring hours of PW has finally paid off.
YES.
It's over.
I'm going to miss woking with my teammates though.
I'm glad everything kinda worked out in the end. :)
PJ402.
CHEE.
I mean PJ042.
No hard feeling there eh? ;)

And it's the start of new beginnings as well...

Pics from EMA's

Tokio Hotel smoking HOT.

Bill WORKS IT. XD
I swear he can become BFFs with Adam.
Just PLEASE DON'T BE GAY TOO. X(

I'm glad Joe finally got a newer nicer do.

Credit MTV Europe Music Awards 2009 Berlin Official Website for the photos!

OFF TO BED EVERTYONE.
EXAHSUTED.
Out.

Medicine.

2009-11-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

OMG.
I think my ear is swelling for some reason.
I kept getting blood rush during the chinese paper.
Anyway.
The chinese paper wasn't too bad.
A passage about Walt Disney and Mickey Mouse.
Wow.
AMAZING.
They can even come up with lessons to learn from that.

Today is All Souls Day as well.
Loving and missing you Great grandma and grandpa.
And the grandpa i never met. X(
I'll see you in heaven one day. :)

Anyway.
Gotta run.
Making up for mistakes and sleep.
Hee.
OUT.

Where did i go wrong?

2009-10-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

Someone must be telling lies.
My parents are good people.

I want to give up.
I hate myself.

Someone save me.

2009-10-26T22:23:00.002+08:00

Not even the lion can save me from the witch.
Why did you have to leave till thursday...
Why am i always alone?
Why?
Fear doesn't drive.
It kills.
Believing drives.
Do you?
I don't know if you do.

NARUTO!

2009-10-25T01:59:00.002+08:00

Me loves watching Naruto!
Now me is going to bed!
PEACE.

Why do lizards exist?

2009-10-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

I've personally never hated lizards.
Until just a few minutes ago.
I was having a jolly good time chatting on Live.
Then suddenly there come really odd sounds from the aircon.
YES.
Odd sounds.
Then suddenly i hear a lizard, except that in sounds like it was it pain.
So i was thinking OH GOD... NO...
And true enough.
YES OH GOD YES.
The lizard fell out of my aircon!
Mel & I went hysterical.
Screaming for our lives.
Usually i don't.
But the thought of a grinded lizard falling out of the aircon was just DISGUSTING.
Thank god parsem came back.
Even though she was like all SHUT UP LA.
I HATE LIZARDS.
THEY ARE STUPID AND DON'T KNOW HOW TO THRIVE PROPERLY.
CURSE THEM FOR FRIGHTENING MY ALREADY FRAGILE HEART.

Well enoough about lizards i guess.
OP was interesting.
I thought we'd die big time but it wasn't too shabby.
But i think i look really WEIRD.
I was NERVOUS.
The lousy drama person i am.
Hee.
Chinese mock exam.
I think i may do better. :)
Thanks tutor! ;)
Hopefully at least.
Well i guess i'm signing out for today.
Really exhausted REALLY.
And traumatized by the bloody lizard.
I think there is still one more in the study room...
EEKS.
At least my PW boys are coming over tomorrow.
HOORAY FOR THEM!
Unless they are scared too? XD
Haha.
Night night!

Why go home?

2009-10-19T19:05:00.003+08:00

I'm only doing onto you what you have done to me.
Woman.
I can only take so much day in day out.

Bounce.

2009-10-19T11:28:00.002+08:00

I don't know if anyone reads my blog no more but who cares.
ANYWAYS.
If you haven't seen this video YOU HAVEN'T LIVED.
THAT GOOD.
For people who don't like the JoBros or Miss Lovato.
Don't watch cause you probably won't find it funny.
But it is funny. XD
Take care ya'll.
Have a great in lieu Deepavali holiday.
Peace out.
Don't forget.
Keep Bouncing.

SO DUMB.

2009-10-17T11:34:00.003+08:00

Omg.
Was just watching Phineas & Ferb Musical Cliptastic Countdown.
Love it btw. XD
Then i changed channel to Nickelodeon to see what was on.
And they were showing this Spongebob advertisment.

Says

Sponggebob: Yeah Squidward. You should really start working out.
Squidward: Why not i start now, besides i have two dumbells right here! (laughs)
Patrick: (takes a moment to think) I don't get it.

WTF?!
That's why i hate this show.
Both Patrick & Spongebob are DUMB.
Sigh at least Phineas & Ferb is cute and doesn't really teach kids sacarsm.
That's the last thing they need these days.
Monsters.
I'm out.
Going to play my $5 Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire PC Game.
WOHOOOO!!!!
Money's Worth! XD
See ya!

I know i shouldn't give up.

2009-10-15T21:18:00.002+08:00

I know i'm not made to study.
I can.
But everytime i sit down for a while.
My stupid mind starts to wonder.
I know my studies are important.
I know it.
But still i can't sit.
And look at the notes.
It just doesn't help my ambition.
And where i want to be.
I just keep thinking of what i could be if i was not in Sg.
Probably living and rocking it now.
I won't stop trying.
I just won't.
I may not be the best out there.
But i'll give whatever i got.
And try even harder.
And for my studies.
I'll just try my best to concentrate and get reasonable grades for the moment.
Please Lord.
Help me.
My stomach is overflowing with the feeling of remorse and fear of failing those blasted promotional exams.
Holidays are not looking terribly fun.
Oh 12 November stay away.

OH NO.

2009-10-13T12:17:00.002+08:00

How can they put hotness with...
ex-hotness turned BAD aka Miss Hudgens.
Alex, run while you can.
Seriously.

Having a flu today so i'm not feeling teribly awesome.
In fact my back is aching for some reason.
I'm seriously not kidding.
This is not because i wanted to skip IHG today.
But i really am down with a watery & blocked nose flu.
Tissue wastage.
Sigh.
Hopefully i feel well enough to join the class on the excursion tomorrow.
But i guess it's good that i can catch up on sleep and play the guitar and stuff. :)
Since i hardly have time otherwise.
See ya!

PS. OMG my neighbour just got guitar hero! Hmm... ;)

Me Plus You.

2009-10-11T17:37:00.004+08:00

His name is Justin Bieber.
And he's only 15.
CUTE.
But the way they are marketing him.
Not cute.
It's like out to grab all the girls kind of songs?
Sigh America.
Anyway.
Besides that, i've seen his videos of him singing live.
And he's really good.
I really disliked this song at first.
BUT it grew on me.
His new song One Less Lonely Girl.
I don't really likey though.
He remind me of my husband.
Maybe he was like this when he was younger.
Pam Bam Bam!
You have a new brother!!! XD
He takes after Daddy.
Looks definitely from me. ;)
Okay enough of my crap.
Enjoy ya'll.

Sunday is always insanely hot.
Diggin my new concealer.
Gosh and i'm geting restless at home. X(
I wanna go out!

2009-10-10T14:01:00.003+08:00

How sweet is this? :)
I don't think she is really dong this for publicity or anything.
And i hope i can safely say she's not that kind of person.
What do you think?

Now this is what true friendship looks like. None of that hollywood crap. @ddlovato I miss you =]

Says Miley on Twitter.
Erm hello?
Since when?
Not just cause i hate her but honestly.
Everyone knows they've not really been on talking terms and it's:
Team Demi & Selena.
Which part has a Miley in it?
UGH.
Great pretender.

Anyways.
Enough of hollywood crap.
I have been taking care of my doggie cause she went to the vet yesterday to clean her teeth and pull out a few.
Now she's acting like some baby.
SOOOO CUTE. XD
And as a result, i got the flu now. X(
Oh well.
My love for my dog. ;)
See ya!

Finally i guess.

2009-10-09T16:35:00.002+08:00

After a really long break.
Being too lazy and kinda busy to update.
So new skin.
New songs.
Yep.
I'm feeling restless and i need to desperately scream into a pillow cause well the penguins have been driving me up the wall.
No school for 3 days.
Nothing to share with friends.
No sister at home.
One word.
HELL.
Stupid penguins.
They are killing me softly.
Just feel like throwing them into the colosseum and seeing them ripped to shreds.
Well it's a bit extreme but that's the extremeness of the anger burning in me.
Like they are only capable of feeling anger and annoyance.
Korean penguin keeps f'ing over the smallest of things.
Self control much you stupid i'm never wrong.
Sigh.
AND NOW YOU'RE NAGGING ME WHILE I'M BLOGGING THIS POST.
Guess this ends here.
On a not very nice note.

Gift of a friend!

2009-08-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hey hey!
After a while i'm finally updating.
School is still going rough for me with a lot of catching up and getting heaps of tummy aches.
But things haven't been going to well in class i think.
But i hope it all simmers down soon.
This week friends were like everything to me.
When i'm down, i really need someone there.
But it was quite hard with everyone going on and on with their own problems as well...
I got the attitude too sometimes, but i just tried to keep it cool for a while.
I hope some people just realise that everything is not as fine and dandy as it is for themselves than for others.
I wish sometimes people can just think about others too...
But i guess it's all also just part of our human nature.
Things have just been working out in really unfair and selfish ways for many of us.

I was just watching Peter Pan just now.
I realised how much i miss watching all these cartoons!!!
Especially the older ones...
How good it is to be just swept away in fantasy...
And wish everything was as simple as having faith, trust, and a little pixie dust to do the trick.
I wish i was Wendy or Jane sometimes.
I felt like a little child watching it but yet so so happy...
Something i just always want to feel. :)

I think i'm gonna get a fever and sore throat tomorrow! X(
Crossing my fingers that i don't!

New Divide?

2009-08-12T23:45:00.002+08:00

Finally updating.
Honestly i must say i have been really lazy to post.
And REALLY exhausted and busy.
Seriously no kidding.
Missing out on a week of school is horrible.
Trust me.
Unless you're like in Primary or Secondary school that's nothing really.

I'm determined i'll never let what happened in Sec 3 happen again.
I wasted so much time and caused myself to suffer.
Gotta snap out of this and just get to work.

I feel quite accomplished though after Bio consultation.
I swear it is NOT remedial.
Mr C said otherwise and i was like NOOO it's so not!!!
I think the facts are more or less glued in my head.
Something should maybe do more often.

I feel really bad for Mr C.
The class hasn't exactly been welcoming or been giving him an easy time.
It was just a total misunderstanding.
And he meant the very best out of it.
I just hope this issue would be settled soon cause it seems to be just personal now.
And i'm certain no one can handle that much drama with so much other crap to do.
Not to mention, we'll be watching and maybe involved in the drama.
Messy messy.
Cross fingers that everything goes well. :)
If it's anything that's an issue, I want my Hottie hot Hottie back!!! XD
That's the only replacement we need.
YA HEARD ME.
R-E-P-L-A-C-E-M-E-N-T.
I'm not very fond of the lack of motivation and the heck care attidtude.
Not when it means my A or B is at stake.

Drama is the same old nonsense. XD
I wish i could be acting in the teacher's day production but i gotta give others a chance.
AND OMG.
I'm doing costumes, DIE.
And there's a bigger cast this time around.
Sigh.
Well at least i know they'll all look really fashionable cause I'M in charge!
DAH!!! XD

Anyways i also saw Hottie hot Hottie today!
OMG.
I nearly died when he walked behind me.
I was like 'OH HI!!!'
I could have killed myself on the spot cause i was totally flustered and it sounded like i was going to die of hyperventilation.
HEHE.
Chelsea and Wen X said that i went totally BRILLIANTLY RED.
I had to use my wallet to cover my face and to stop myself from grinning like a maniac.
How i am ashamed of myself sometimes. :D

Anyway there's a lovely bio test tomorrow plus PW submission.
OH MA.
Gotta run along now!
Toodles!

XOXO

I wanna know you.

2009-07-28T18:42:00.005+08:00

Is it me?
Or do i actually find myself wanting to go back to school?
This feels horrible.
Not just the fact that i do, want to go back to school.
But i can't talk, or sing very well...
I can't even step out of the room to touch the black and white keys and not breathe whatever all that is inside onto everything.
GOSH i didn't think i'd ever find my room so suffocating.
I'm still unsure when i'll be able to put on the white blouse and grey skirt.
But i think tomorrow would be a safe bet.
I think.

Anyway i was watching Hannah Montana (OMG I'LL PROBLABLY SLAP MYSELF FOR ADMITTING THIS) and Wizards of Waverly place.
I was only watching Hannah Montana cause it's funny and i just wish as i was lucky as that woman who can't sing.
And the stories.
A few i saw.
Really made me feel so so much better.
Not less stressed from studies or anything but just, better. :)

I really like this song. It's duet by Miley and David A.(CUTENESS)
And i don't know.
It just hit me.
Like the apprehension, yet interest, innoncence, and joy of meeting someone new, and getting to know that person. :)

I Wanna Know You by Miley Cyrus featuring David Archuleta

Woah woah ohh
Woah Oh
Woah woah ohh
Woah Oh
Woah woah oh (Woooaaaahhh)
Woah Oh
Woah Oh

Miley:
When I saw you over there
I didn't mean to stare
But my mind was everywhere
I wanna know you

David:
But I guess that you're the kind
that says whats on her mind
But you listened when I had
something to show you

Miley:
There's a mark above your eye
You got it in July
fighting for your sisters reputation

You remember peoples names
And valentines are lame
So I bring you flowers for no occasion
Ohhhh yeah

Woah woah ohh
Woah Oh
I wanna know you
Woah woah ohh
Woah Oh
I wanna know where you go
I wanna find out what you know
And maybe someday down the road
I'll sit back and say to myself
Yeah, I thought so!

You smile and never shout
You stand out in the crowd
You make the best of every situation

Correct me if I'm wrong
You're fragile and you're strong
A beautiful and perfect combination

Yeah!
Woah woah ohh (Yeah)
Woah Oh
I wanna know you
Woah woah ohh
Woah Oh
I wanna know where you go
I wanna find out what you know
And maybe someday down the road
I'll sit back and say to myself (Yeah)

Like how you are with me
In our future, history
Maybe someday down the road
I'll sit back and say to myself
Yeah, I thought so!

I thought so
Ooh
Yeahhh
Wooooaaahhh

Woah woah ohh (Yeeeeeaaaaaahhhh)
Woah Oh (Yeeeeaaaahhhhh)
I wanna know you
Woah woah ohh (Yeeeeeaaaaahhh)
Woah Oh (Yeeeeeeaaaaahhh)
I wanna know where you go (Woah woah ohh)
I wanna find out what you know (Woah Oh)
And maybe someday down the road (Woah woah ohh)
I'll sit back and say to myself (Ooooooohhhhohoh yeah)
(Woah Oh)

Like how you are with me (Oh yeah, yeah)
(Yeeeeaaaahhh)
(Woah woah ohh)
In our future, history (Yeeeeeaaaaahhhh)
(Woah Oh)
Maybe someday down the road (Yeeeeeeaaaaaahhhh)
(Woah woah ohh)
I'll sit back and say to myself (Yeeeeeaaaaahhh)
(Woah Oh)
Yeah, I thought so!

:)

Now it's nothing but in my way.

2009-07-25T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hey hey everyone!
I changed the songs.
Something that make me feel a lot better and stronger. ;)
This week has been paticularly tough.
It started on Wednesday with a SERIOUS scolding and whacking from my mum.
Then all those shitty feeling and things that have been happening just came to mind with that.
Which was insane to the point i couldn't take it.
It's so hard trying to please everyone.
Here i am trying my best to recover from everything, trying my best to please others and myself, trying to do what i want to do but they keep shouting and people keep on reminding me.
Sigh.
I really wish i was just born overseas and brought up differently.
I hate Singapore life.
I want to taste snow, exeperience summer holidays,
get to do what i want to.
At least i'll have a shot at it.

Graduation was yesterday!
I was so happy to see everyone yesterday!!!
Catching up and knowing what's been happening with everyone.
It felt like home.
But i was super sad cause frannypoo and kennymoo didn't show. X(
I knew frannypoo was sick but i doon't know about kennymoo.
Nevertheless, it was fun and nervewrecking to go onstage and collect a blank cert. :P
The best part of course was still seeing everyone again.
We'll always be 4M.
Always and forever from MGS. :)

I tore you out of my heart.
And my loneliness ain't killing me no more.
Like you said,
I can do so much better right?

2009-07-18T21:53:00.002+08:00

Gosh.
Things haven't been going that great lately.
Pertaining to results.
I have improved though not good enough.
But at least i don't feel so bad cause i know did study. :)
Just gotta do that even harder i guess.
From the ways things are going.
It seems like everything, is going to get tougher from now.
It already has been like that for the past two weeks.
But i gotta get a grip of myself and start pushing and not waste time.
I wish i could be a kid again.
I was just watching Minutemen, Enchanted and Narnia: Prince Caspian.
Obviously not all at one shot but.
I just felt so much bliss...
Watching.
I wish i could be a hero too.
Just once...
Do what i really want to do...
But i know that's it's so far away.
I just want to go there now.
Now...
But I'll be strong.
I'll weather the hurricane.
I'll keep trying.
I get there someday.

Lla liah.
"And then i had to spoil all by saying something stupid like i love you."
I'll pretend nothing happened.

Adam.

2009-07-07T17:18:00.003+08:00

No boundaries to HOTNESS!!!

SEE???!!!
THIS IS WHY HE SHOULD WIN.
Where's Kris?
HMM???
I DON'T KNOW.
Who cares.
Oh well that's all for today.
Just gaze at the sexyness talent. XD

WIMBELDON.

2009-07-03T22:45:00.002+08:00

IT'S THAT TIME OF YEAR!!!
WHERE YOU SNUGGLE BEHIND ON THE COUCH AFTER A NICE SHOWER AND DINNER...
WITH A BOTTLE OF COLD CHOCOLATE MILK...
AND COOKIES. XD
AND I'M NOT. NOT TALKING ABOUT CHRISTMAS.
WHO DA HELL TALKS ABOUT CHRISTMAS IN SUMMER???!!!
ANYWAY!
IT'S WIMBELDON SEASON!!! XD
WOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!
Well actually it's ending already.
Watching the two Andy's play now.
Roddick & Murray.
Wonder who will win.
Too bad there ain't no RAFA NADA.
Get it???
HAHAHA.
Anyways.
YEP.
YAYNESS.
Something to do since we are somewhat quarantined at home.
RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!
PFFT!
And the genius of people who call themselves ministers and yada yada,
Decide to give us MYE.
AT HOME.
HELLOOO??????
Too stressed lately???
It's the most insane idea ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And not it a good way.
I understand we are on LOA.
But there's something called rescheduling!!!
I don't care if we are a bit slow.
We can pick up pace sooner or later or give others a break and let them slow down a little with us.
GOSH.
What is the world coming too.
I have plans for tomorrow finally.
Not boring at least like today.
MATHS and ewwww.....
Hopefully i can take darling sapphire along as well...
AND WALKING!!!!!!!!
I CAN WALK FAR AWAY ON FLOOR THAT ISN'T ONLY MARBLE AND PARQUE!!!
YESSSSS!!!!!!!!
Haha.
Anyway i'm gonna have tons of fun and buy loads of shit.
YOU BET I AM.
Anyway gotta go back to the TV.
Duty calls.
Must watch Wimbeldon. XD

2009-07-01T15:52:00.002+08:00

iPod playlist:
Daughtry - Over You
David Cook - Permanent
Vanessa Hudgens - Paper Cut
Christina Aguilera - Fighter
Kelly Clarkson - Because of You
Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry
Jonas Brothers - Fly With Me
Adam Lambert - No Boundaries

The last two songs have absolutely no link but I listen to them because I LOVE those songs recently and it makes me feel better. :)
I'm really exhausted today.
RUTH my jellybean!!!
I'll pray for you and i know you will get better! :)
Thanks keith for helping me out with Chemistry today and well i'm just happy to talk to ya! :)
That's all for today.
Going to play the piano now then study! :)
I'm going to be awesome at it one day.
Just watch.

I'm letting go!

2009-06-30T17:31:00.002+08:00

I feel my slapping myself.
Seriously.
I should be feeling happy and confindent about the way i am.
BUT NOOO.
I gotta feel all crappy and like some loser...
Well i'm not going to be feeling sorry for myself anymore.
I JOLLY WELL DON'T DESERVE THIS KIND OF SHIT ANYMORE.
So i'm not going to care anymore.
The hurt is now turning into anger.
Which is bad and i should totally let it go.
But it's just like that okay!
What happened.
I can't say it's nothing and i don't think i can pretend anymore.
So forget it.
It's no point salvaging it anymore.
I just can't do it.
Not now.
I'm sure you'll be just fine without me.
I know you will be.
I can't change the ways things are.
I can't do it alone.
OMG.
Wth i don't know what i'm saying.
Maybe it'll get better after a while.
I don't know.
Depends on time now.
Gosh do i wish this was an once a week affair.
It'd be so much more easier.

Bio MYE yesterday.
I think i actually knew what i was writing!!!
Miracle i swear.
Miracle.
OH no.
And chem is tomorrow.
I can't wait till the papers are over till friday.
Even though i have no one to go out with at the moment.
I'll find someone.
HAHA.
If not i'll go house hopping!
YEA.
WATCH OUT YA'LL.
Chem is tomorrow.
Wish me luck.
I think i'm pretty screwed.
Help me. X(
Still have chinese (HAH) and math.
Thank heavens.
First small lap going to be over in a short while.
And OMG.
I have a new hot neighbour.
How awesome is that??? ;)
Can't wait to go out soon!!!

Adam Lambert:
- I'm trying to be a rockstar people. I shouldn't be eating ice cream. I need to lose some weight.
- Whoever is pretending to be me, shame on you. (Cause he doesn't have a Twitter account)

OMG TOTAL HOTNESS.
You know you can't deny it. XD

Thrill the world.

2009-06-27T11:05:00.004+08:00

How just a single man, just one.
Can change the world.
Google thought they were being spammed even!
And there's like no news about Iran or H1N1 anymore.
He stopped the news!
The headlines is just that he's gone.
One album.
50 million.
Insane.
No one will dream of that kind of success ever in a lifetime.
Who doesn't know who's MJ.
HAS gotta be living in a rock.
He's just so insanely young.
He still as 50 years to go!!!
His childhood was so horrible...
People hated him even...
They accused him of things he never did!
You don't even need to be a genius to know just how lonely he was.
He cared about the world...
His music speaks to the whole entire world.
I wish i had the opportunity to meet him.
To at least see him perform.
FOREVER WILL HIS MUSIC, DANCE MOVES AND LEGACY LIVE ON!!!
I'm sure He will bless this selfless and compassionate man in heaven!
Michael Jackson I Love You!!!
All hail the King of Pop.

Who am i kidding.
I can't do this anymore.

2009-06-25T11:40:00.002+08:00

Oh my GOSH.
I swear...
Why is it so freagging hard to let go???
It's been days since saturday...
My thoughts have all finally comprehended...
I know what i'm supposed to be doing and i know what i'm not supposed to...
But why is it so bloody hard?
WHY IN THE WORLD DID I OPEN MY STUPID MOUTH???
I hope i can get over this soon...
I will get over this soon...
It's no use feeling this way if nothing is returned.
For my own good.
I'm just so confused and...
I don't know...
I don't.

I felt like i was sharing...
I hated it.
I'm sorry for the selfish no-gooder i am.

WASABI!

2009-06-22T17:03:00.002+08:00

Hey ho!
Everyone yo!!!
Haha.
I sound like josehpine! XD
Anyway.
I feel a lot better today.
I shall no longer be upset and well.
There will always be better days.
And there will maybe be someone else.
So i'm happy just going back to things as they were before as if all of us were just getting to know each other. :)
I just wanna be really happy myself too.
You're not going anywhere, so i won't be going anywhere.
So yup yup!!! :)
I don't want to waste my energy feeling sad when i can be happy!!!
HEHE. XD
I caught up with many friends since i came back on friday!
Via phone cause i don't really want to get anyone sick accidently.
But it just made me realise how much i miss and need them.
Especially to keep me in check. ;)
Of course i have new friends now as well.
But we still don't really know each other to that extent so...
Yea i just miss them so much and well i've learnt a lot of new things...
I'm happy i know what is happening in your lives, without me.
HAHA. :D
And even though we are all over the place.
Literally.
I'm just so so happy that nothing has changed. :)
And if you need someone i'm here!
I'll always be there to cheer you up with my bimbotic ways maybe and try guide you! XD
We must all go for founders yea???
It'll be awesome to see you guys again and i have stuff to pass to you so yup!!! :)
Hehe.

Btw please take note:

1. Everyone petition for extended holidays. I'm not just saying this cause i want them holidays but my friend had gotten the H1N1 and thankfully he's okay now. But still. It is kind of real. And i DON'T wanna fall sick. My record has been clean the whole year so. This thingy is kind of scary so just yea! EXTEND THE HOLS PLEASE!

2. My handphone has been confiscated. Hip hip hooray. If you need to contact me. Via email or my house phone or msn yea?

OMG.
AND HAS ANYONE NOTICED.
The weather is crucifying me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This earth is seriously screwed up.
Saving it now it's seriously too late... :(
Sometimes i wonder what those darn environmentalists and humantirains are up to.
COMMON.
Sometime it's just common sense isn't it when someting is OBVIOUSLY screwing up.
Sigh.
In the end it's all about blasted economics.
ECONOMICS.
Don't make me barf.
I'd rather be layman than speak weirdo mumbo jumbo.
LAYMAN ROCKS OKAY???
Stupid subject.
Anyways.
I've gotta go!...
Study.
Hopefully i can go out tomorrow with lena and my mellybabe!!! XD

SO WHAT? I'm still a rockstar!!! XD

2009-06-21T11:56:00.004+08:00

Hey everyone!
I'm back from boys over flowers land!
HAHA.
Eww.
Other than being bombarded by korean shit left right centre.
OMG.
I seriously LOVED the weather.
It was AWESOMELY COOL and the mist was so COOL.
Never experienced it before so yea.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE WEATHER DID FOR MY FACE AND HAIR.
Wonderful i tell you.
HAHA. XD
Anyway the trip was fun!
I made new friends.
Edison, Symphony and Jun Wei.
Haha.
Pretty cool people they were. :)
And quite funny.
EVERYBODY, MY NAME IS BERN.
BERN. XD
HAHAHA.
SO random okay?
Out of no where Jun Wei just like pronounces it.
HE STOLE MY NAME EVEN.
To play chess.
WTH.
And of course melanie being melanie.
Ditched me for the boys...
SIGH.
HAHA.
ANYWAYS.
The tour guide was super nice and super cute too!
Her laugh is DA BOMB.
Seriously.
It sounds a bit like breathless and forced laughter but it's just like that.
SO CUTE. XD
But my daddy found it annoying.
And mel went high on laughter.
HOO BOY. XD
OMG.
And some weirdos tried to touch my teddy bear...
MOLEST I SWEAR.
IDIOTS!!!!!!!! X(
My poor teddy.
Oh well.
I have so much more to tell.
But i'm kind of lazy to type.
And i have a second paragraph.

You know on the plane on the way home.
I saw the movie 'He's just not that into you.'
And i was wondering.
Why the hell i didn't watch that movie on the way up...
But i guess it would've destroyed my trip a little.
Anyway.
I was just thinking about it.
And i feel quite stupid and embarrassed.
Cause i think i got some signs.
But i didn't get it then...
Until i saw the movie.
Nevertheless the movie also gave me a lot more hope and strength.
With a very strong prominent female lead.
I feel a bit like Scarlett Johansson's and Ginnifer Goodwin's character.
A combination.
That with all the mistakes made.
I'm a lot closer. :)
Well at least i think i am, and i'll just learn from this.
When i immediately called after touching down.
I kind of knew and sensed something different already.
So i guess i was just waiting for it to come.
And it did yesterday.
So while i was away...
Those messages, their value, and everything special, to me, just plummeted deep into the earth.
Gone.
Just like that.
What happened was wrong.
Everything.
And to the 3rd party.
I'm truly honestly sorry for everything.
I really really didn't want to, though i liked it and wanted to, cause i knew it was wrong.
If i ever meet you one day.
Hopefully i can apologize completely and sincerely.
I am very very heartbroken.
Especially yesterday.
No doubt about that.
But i still am me. :)
Cause well i still have a hell lot of time. :)
I'm really okay.

I did call you this morning.
But you didn't answer.
But i kept my promise.
I can't tell you how i'm honestly feeling.
I may be telling the truth or i could be lying.
You won't know now.
That sexy vampgirl.
She's not here anymore.
It's a bit difficult to persuade her to come out.
She's quite scared now...
However I'll be there if you need me.
To hear you out and talk to.
I'll always be by your side and be a good friend.
But it's just not going to be the same.
Cause of course you're still so important to me...
I'm still your friend. :)
After all the scolding.
From bills, to just lectures...
I think i'm tired and i've learnt my lesson.
I don't think i should get all this right now for being just willing to do everything for someone.
I shall wait...
And actually be patient till i find out for sure if both feelings will be true...
I'm sorry...
It was a very grave mistake that i actually now i think i regret.
I should have just shut up from the start.
I just made you confused and everything...
Because of my silly assumption.
Please please don't do so much for me anymore to that extent till it feels as if 'we' are like that, if not i'll feel worse.
And you're just not supposed to...
I'm gonna make sure i, totally, forget this crazy awesome feeling.

For a while at least...

JO JO, MELLYBABE, LENA, ELI-CHAN, FRANNYPOO... ... WATCH OUT!!!
I'M COMING OVER MAYBE AND PREPARE A BUCKET!!! XD ...

And i'll be back.

2009-06-05T19:25:00.004+08:00

Hey all.
I'm really really exhausted.
Things are getting a little complicated as always for me.
But i guess it's really not that bad this time around.

1. Do I want to forget?

Honestly. No. I'd never chose to forget because the feeling is just wonderful but now it's becoming a bit unbearable. But i'll be okay eventually. And i can NEVER EVER forget who you are as a person. It's just mission impossible. :)

2. Are you ok?

No naturally i'm not. I don't think anyone in my kind of position would be. I'm just trying to be really strong for you and myself. I don't like being sad and i don't want to you sad cause of me... And i can't afford to see the principal. Gotta pass those blasted mid years. This has never happened to me before so, i'll learn to walk again. Don't worry. :)

3. Why me?

HAHA. I felt like saying this, 'Why not you?' Haha. Despite the fact that it's breaking rules. Lol. Of course no one think of themselves that highly but i takes someone to see it in you. UNLESS YOU'RE AN ARROGANT ASS. :P But most people aren't like that anyways i think, and definitely not you. Why? Because you saw me when i was invisible. Your smile and seeing you almost everyday when i'm sad it's like the rain on my window pane and the snow on my face that i have never felt before. (I LOVE the rain) It's absolutely lovely and thriling that makes me so joyful and warm on the inside. Though my expressions all have to do with the cold. Even though i may give you a slap of a pinch, you have no idea how i'm bursting with glee on the inside like a child. :) You encourage me, you try to see the best in me, you even shield me for ebil presences! You re-ignite that hope in me when i feel utterly loss and upset... Even your singing, it's enough to brighten my day... I can't be anymore grateful than i already am... If i could be anymore grateful, yea. I'd do that. :)

4. What are you thinking about?

I feel like giving up as much as i don't want to... Cause i honestly don't know what to do. I'm wondering why i was so foolish. I just seem to be so blind, looking in all the wrong places. Your friend. Maybe it's not right for you to do all... this... so often for me. You should be doing it for your friend right? And your friend, is so so... lucky.

I'm sorry....
And just remember,
I don't want you to ever leave my side,
Don't forget...

Just so you know.

2009-06-04T19:53:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!
BOY.
I'm not sure if i made the biggest mistake or not.
I think i shouldn't have.
It's not right...
Not right...
But.
I meant every word.
You don't need to be Joe Jonas.
You just have to be you.
I like you just the way you are. :)
I don't like doing this to you.
That's why i never said.
I didn't want it to change anything.
I will remember to smile.
Cause i don't want you to feel sad or troubled by me. :)
And as long as you're happy.
I'll be happy. :)

I did it again.
Me again.
Not someone.
I feel like such a loser.
Haha.
GOSH.
Oh well.
And there's still EoM.
SHIT. X(

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop

It happened ever so unexpectedly and accidently...

2009-06-02T17:38:00.003+08:00

Hey hey!
Sexy werelord has been coming over pretty recently!
THANKS so much for keeping me company and making sure i study! :)
You're always welcomed over. :)
Cheer up okay?
I really hate to see you down...
I feel horrible when you do! :(
Go powerful werelord!!! :)
I'll always have your back!
ZOMG.
Econs test tomorrow.
And i'm flying off next week.
Everything is just happening to fast...
I wish sometimes everything could slow down.
So i could have time to do things the right way...
Before i make some stupid mistake.
And one day i may be just be flying off for real.
There are so many things i want to say.
And so many things i can't.
Cause now just isn't the right time.
But i hope maybe i won't be too late.
There are so many people i want to thank and so many people i want to help.
And there are those who are moving on but i want to keep with me forever...
I want time to tell them.
I want time to show them.
I want time to even hold them.
To show them how much they mean to me...
There's only so much time i have.
I'll keep waiting.
Because they have to know.
They just have to...

You appeared ever quite suddenly.
And turned my whole world upside down.
And i think i'm falling accidently into ...

That's what you get!

2009-05-30T12:03:00.002+08:00

Hey hey!
As quite a few people know i haven't been doing great lately...
I failed three tests in row.
I've firmly decided i shall no longer regret and study.
So if maybe if i don't do well i'll feel much better! :)
And hopefully JC life will be less painful in terms of studies.
AND I'M BUYING HER BANANAS.
HOPEFULLY IT'LL HELP HER CONTROL HER FLUCTUATING EMOTIONS.
And thank you everyone for making me feel so much better!!!
You have no idea how much it means to me!!! :)
I keep saying that but seriously.
It's more than you can imagine! :)
My sexae werelord!
Thanks for trying harder in combined efforts with Jun Jie or something! :)
It's working i think! XD

Yesterday.
GP.
Gosh you know i seriously think i picked the hard question.
What i did was.
"Is change really necessarily better?"
HELP LA.
I think i'm going to do quite badly. X(
I had breakfast with 1/3 of our class at McDonalds. :)
After that sexy werelord came over to my place to CHILL.
Haha literally.
It was DAMN HOT yesterday.
Plus with sexae people around the temperature is bound to go up no? ;D
AND OMG HOW DARE MY DOGGIE.
I think she's sexist.
She listened to Bryan yesterday.
And it's not as if she listens to me a lot.
THANKS.
Some good friend she is to her fellow female compatriot.
Oh and my poster sticks on the wall!
THANKS BRYAN!
And your sexae powers! ;)
We were supposed to study but we ended up slacking.
And we watched 21.
Super cool movie i swear.
I had no idea Harvard had scandals. :P
But then again i guess which institution doesn't nowadays?
I feel like saying SHADDUP KY!!! but then again he can't hear me.
DAMN.
BTW I SO DON'T LIKE YOU ANYMORE.
I think. ;P
OOOOOOH.
I saw some dimwit as well as i was walking down the hill with Brybry.
EWWW.
WHATEVER you PUNK.
THANKS Bryan for coming over and occupying my boring day!!! :)
I had a ton of fun!!!
And you can always come again! :)
I'll practise the piano for you yea?
Hee.

Anyway i think i gotta go now.
Gotta study for econs and hopefully i can go to NTUC later. :P

Yea yea, woah woah.

2009-05-17T19:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my b'dae party!
OMG.
THE FUN AND THE PAIN. XD
Let's start with the pain.
Walking up and down the hill about 3 times looking for people.
Making drinks, washing stuff, cleaning up spilled stuff and serving.
Nagged at once.
Accused by my mum for something NOT TRUE.
Or maybe that one was just self denial. :P
Camwhoring.
People playing with my dog.
Adorable ain't she? ;)
Watching movies. (Wolverine *HAHA* and Wanted)
Sorry about not being able to watch scary movie 4... :(
Talking nonsense.
Cake!
AND especially having everyone i wanted over!
Thanks you guys really for everything!!! :)
Presents and all but more importantly for coming and remembering!
That really really means soo much to me. :)
Love you guys!
And i saw Taken after everyone left!
Hehe.
So you can imagine that i'm still dead beat now so my post ends here for today!
Toodles! :)
XOXO

Where do i go from here?

2009-05-13T15:54:00.001+08:00

I didn't go to school today.
Yawn but i watched a bit of Sonny With A Chance and The Suite Life so i made feel a bit better about missing econs. ;)
When i turned on my phone this morning i got a reply from Sandra, drama relay, and a message from someone i least expected.
But then i wondered, where was everyone else?...
So much for not being the invisible kid.
Then lena's message came in and then melly's shortly after, so i brushed the thought aside.
Soon after i got a call from Sandra.
And she shared with me her wonderful news. :)
I must say her taste is good. ;)
Hehe.
Happy birthday dear! :)
You'll always be the kind of little smarter sister i never had.
Love you lots! :)
Looks like everyone is already starting to move on.
Things haven't been great and all here...
Grandma, school and stuff.
But i think i'm starting to want more things for myself.
Not just things, but people, skills and chances.
I'll just try for everything i can.
And maybe i'll get them someday. :)
Cause i want to get them someday.
Well.
Now i'm off to play the piano.
Tata!

She was given a role, never knew just when to play.

2009-05-10T16:46:00.003+08:00

Oh man.
This week there are tons of tests.
And tons of assignments. X(
Horrible.
Disastrous.
The past few days were pretty boring.
Drama elections.
Does that count? :P
I hope i get a pretty good post. :)
Otherwise i have nothing much to be excited about.
So of course i started thinking.
I think i have just lost some parts of my history and the people in them...
It hurts...
Like crazy.
And like how they forgot me...
It's a new beginning.
I think i have accidently done something.
It just happened...
That is making me feel sad and a little crappy too...
But i'll try.
Try my very hardest to smile.
So you will too, and not worry.
You try to cheer me up even when i'm all demoralised.
Cause i just want everyone to smile.
I'll be happy because i have really good friend who always wants me to smile.
Thank you.
I'm really glad it's you. :)

I quit but i ain't given you up!

2009-05-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

OMG.
Long week to go.
With stupid temperature taking and all even that 15 mins extension is freakin sucky.
The drama production will finally over tomorrow. :)
At least we don't have to stay so extremely late.
That's the only thing that i'm actually happy about the swine flu.
Leave school by 7.45 if not we'll drag you out!
BY ALL MEANS, i'll comply to that rule. XD
Efforts finally paid off...
I hope.
At least i'll try not to be hopping around in the dark trying to slip on my sandal.
Embarrassing much. X)
So much work and a few tests coming up.
Somebody please be praying for me.

I met up with frannypoo!!!! on Sunday.
AT LONG LAST. X)
I got a lift from gabriel cause they were going to the St Joseph's fun fair too.
How i missed my frannypoo and i'm so elated that we got to meet up, walk around and chat.
We shall meet up more franny k? :)
I saw Mamma Mia on Sat.
OMG.
Most random musical/movie.
People just start singing and getting married out of the blue. :P
Hahaha.
How.... AWKWARD! XD
But it is a terribly cute movie i must say. :)
Sunday.
Church.
Same old same old.
My mum just had to open her mouth and tell everyone i was having a party.
PARTY POOPER. X(

Both Brother and frannypoo said something on Sun that made me pretty happy. :P
Something juvenile to happy over though.
I think.
Or maybe i'm just in self denial. X)
Yes i will work hard!!!
I'll feel bad for it at first.
But this is a dog eat dog world right?
So i want my share. :D
Long day tomorrow.
Gotta protect my sexae voice. ;)
Nightos!

It kinda crept up, and took me by surprise.

2009-05-02T16:12:00.002+08:00

This week has been a teensy bit scary for me.
It's like a blend of nutella, coffee, cocunut, nuts, and whatever else blended into one.
School is not that great with my uber ugly econs marks for my test.
And Julaiha told me Miss Foo asked something very interesting the other day...
NO MISS FOO!!!!!!
There's nothing!!! NOTHING I SAY!!! :D
Really... :)
And i can't still can't believe chemistry is my best sub so far.
Dorothy must be proud. *sniff*
And remember how i said Shermann would still be teaching us.
Apparently, NO.
My CT teacher is returning from maternity leave and will be teaching us GP as of next monday.
Wonder why she couldnt've stayed home longer.
I'd pay for her leave!!!!!!!!
Nah i'm not that bad...
I'm glad i got the opportunity to be taught my Shermann anyways.
I know i can still try for that A! :)

Yesterday.
Was our second class outing!
But the first for me! :)
And i must say i had ooodles of fun! X)
Yuan Zhang looked really stylish i must say.
So well put together, especially for a boy, in Singapore.
Well done!!! ;)
I was totally diggin Huldah's belt.
What't the word...
FABULOUS! ;)
Bowling was funny.
And i have to say evveryone was pretty darn LUCKY.
With just the first ball people were getting strikes and spares...
AND THE PRESSURE IS ON.
People who desperately to try to spin the ball undoublty failed. :P
But of course a few succeeded! :)
Ck played in my place for a while.
And i'm glad she had fun though my score didin't move very much.
It's all for fun.
Huldah had to leave after bowling, so we went to ice skate.
Haha.
Of course i sucked at first, having never skated in my life.
But i think i was pretty good for a first timer. :)
I did fall once though and ouch was it painful.
But a few friends were in the same boat as me so i can't complain.
It's fun having company on your bum, on the ice. :D
And of course there were always people who will skate with you!
And possibly scaring you out of your skin, RIGHT Bryan? ;)
Even Rui Qi gave me a shock once in a while! :)
Hehe and i got away with having to pay for gloves because i was wearing my half glove thing.
Which almost everyone had a go at trying on. :)
Yayness!!! XD
That wasn't the only thing being shared.
My jacket was being shared too. -.-
Hehe. Oh wells.
After 2 good hours of skating with no lunch,
We went to the kopitiam to CHOW.
Finally.
OMG.
Jun Jie looks like Zachary Quinto in Star Trek.
SCARY. XD
Then we made our way to Marina where they decided to play pool and i had to leave soon after... X(
So sad...
I don't think i will forget this outing anytime soon. :)
I think i learnt a lot about people over this week.
And maybe over a month...
How Mg is so different from other schools like PJ.
And yet some thing are still very similar...
But we still take things as it comes and goes.
I'm going to try to just make the most of out of it all. :)
Zhi Hui's birthday is tomorrow! :)
Happy birthday!
Hope it will be a awesome day for you! :)
Don't forget that your nail is a renewable resource!
It will grow back! :)
Tomorrow will be another.
Ugh. Math Tuition. X(

2009-04-27T17:31:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone.
Who actually reads my blog.
I haven't posted for eons and i think it's going to be like this for a while so...
Yea.
Busy busy busy.
And me types very slowly... X(
Anyway things haven't been so great the past few days cause of VERY 'political' issues in the class.
But i kinda think He has cheered me up a bit more so i can kinda try help.
And i asked my mum today over Sushi Tei lunch (HEHEHE. XD) and she kinda helped too so. :)
Bryan tried to cheer me up and my ah ma gang too so, thanks guys. :)
Everyone's spirit is dying cause school is really tiring and COMMON' PI??!!!
How can we not be tired.
I really miss frannypoo my seat buddy, eli-chan, qi-sama, fei wong, snoelley... X(
I have barely time to call any of them or go out even.
It's not that i don't like my class or anything.
I love the new kinda of atmosphere. :)
But i really also miss the MG, HUG!!! atmosphere...
Haha.
It seemed kind of lame and senseless at the time but know i get it.
Good thing is though for school now.
I realised Shermann is going to continue teaching us GP!!! XD
My sweetheart and i are overjoyed~!
Hopefully i can get a nice A on my cert. :)
Chinese class is retarded and slack as always.
What would i do without Naing Ooooo! XD
Chem is going pretty well but i can't say the same for bio and math...
The periods are just situated at VERY VERY bad times...
Besides that work seems to be just piling on us...
Which is really crappy because my life equation turns out like:
School+homework-time to go out-time to think-time to hang with friends-time to sleep= Very mentally and physically drained Victoria.
WHICH SUCKS.
Drama.
Is fun of course. XD
But i am hating a certain food hoe.
Someone can take her way her secret stash of coffee coated chocolates and give it to someone who needs it more thank you very much!
And i need a school bag.
Well i don't need one...
But i want a new one. XD
I've been carrying it since p6 for crying out loud!
I want a nice flashy bag pack.
So hopefully my eyes will be blinded by it's colour if i try to fall asleep on it. :P
Anyway gotta run now!!!
So much work to do.
PI touch up.
I did worse than my first draft.
I MEAN WHO DOES WORSE THE SECOND TIME???!!!
Yea and a whole lotta other crap to do.
Can't wait for labour day.
And the fun fair in St. Josephs!
Finally i can see my Poo again!!!!!!!!! XD
Wonderin' what to do for my bdae party...
Or should i have one???
See ya!

2009-04-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

Heyo!
It's been a tiring week.
So i haven't been updating yea?
Gosh today was really tiring and depressing..
My mellybabe is sad and depressed...
So that kind of made me sad and depressed though i was trying to cheer her up...
But it didn't seem to work... X(
Sorry mellybabe!
I hope you feel better.
You know i love you. :)
Today was well okay.
I was a little upset with something, but i'm quite okay now so. :)
Other than jun jie wanting to conserve porn, everything was mellow.
That horny moron. :P
DRAMA.
Don't get me started.
I have bruises and cuts on my knees for dramatizing too well. X/
I wanna knee guards!
Seriously!
Well school the past 2 weeks has been tiring as always.
Maths is just going down the drain for me...
YUCK.
I stayed up the previous night before till about 4ish am doing PI.
I finished it and pretty well i think so. :)
BUT BOY AM I TIRED.
COMMON, the next day the first period was PE. X(
Thank goodness it was water bombs.
AND MY BACK WAS SOAKING WET.
THANKS YING SIEW.
I'LL GET MY REVENGE.
And i found out that chelsea takes the same bus as someone...
DAMN. X)
Lucky her.
I can't wait for my dad to be home on Sunday.
Someone to tame the shrew.
COVERGIRL. XDD

HEHE.
New news.
Everytime i hear Fly on the Wall by Miley (eww) Cyrus, i think of...

Bryan: Don't you wish that you could be a, (He just kind of screwed Miley's voice impersonation. Which was awesome! XD)
Niang Oo: FLY ON THE WALL. (exactly like the effects in the song while mocking it at the same time)
Bryan: A creepy little sleepy little,
Niang Oo: FLY ON THE WALL...

IMAGINE THAT. XD

THINK.

2009-03-18T18:54:00.002+08:00

Yes.
From now on I shall always think before i shoot myself in the foot.
Or do something i actually don't like...
I must think.
I'm sorry i had to...
Cause i was really really sad...

I've been having a headache for a while still i don't know why i followed pirinithaa to watch Push today after bio.
Though it was AWESOME. XD
Really cool, and unexpected.
Love Dakota's wardrobe.
And Camille Belle of course as gorgeous as ever. :D
Pirinithaa.
Her.
Not me. :P
Then i had to go back to school for drama.
Audition people.
It was fun but i'm just too drained to feel anything.
Going out almost everyday is really tiring.

I don't want to go to this church anymore.
I know my dad always tells me it doesn't matter because you go there to talk to God.
Him.
But it's so funny how i can feel so upset and so uncomfortable with God's people...
But feel completely different outside.
Maybe i'm just a lousy socialite.
I'm just afraid to approach them...
It's stupid...

Oh well.
Looking forward tomorrow and class outing. X)

Libra..? HELP I'M STUCK!

2009-03-16T12:50:00.004+08:00

OMG.
I SWEAR I HATE MY SD CARD CAUSE ALL ME AWESOME PICTURES ARE GONE.
AND THIS DEPRIVES ME OF EVIDENCE OF A CERTAIN SOMEONE.
I didn't know librarians, or this paticular one could ever piss me off so much.
I TELL YOU.
She was a FRIGGIN STALKER TOOT AND EVERYTHING ELSE.
We we discussing the script after being chased out of Mcdonalds for more vacancy.
WE EVEN BOUGHT FROM THEM.
Anyways.
So we went to the library and sat ourselves somewhere.
Then we started talking, and realised someone started moving around our area.
First she told us off for being too noisy.
SHE WAS BLOODY EXAGGERATING I SWEAR.
And then she kept hanging around our area.
We couldn't even concentrate cause she was around there.
She even told the lady behind us to tell her if we were making too much noise.
LIKE WTH MUCH.
HATE HER.
We even complained and she went there to listen and defend herself.
Like buzz off!
EWW.

But besides that our script is going along pretty great.
Funny too. X)
I'm happy it's only one story. :)
Yayness!

It's the holidays! :)
I'm going to study and play yo!
Can't wait to catch up with friends! X)
Go out, SHOP, slack, watch movies!
And feel free after this long period of time of hoping,
cause i've realised i can't miss you anymore.

"Who are we?" - Wild Child. XD

A whole new world? XD

2009-03-14T16:28:00.010+08:00

OMG.
YESTERDAY CLASS WAS TRE QUIET.
No pirinithaa and no bryan.
ZOMG.
I can't imagine how our class would've been like if ernest and josephine didn't show up too.
I'd practically be hearing crickets! XD
Scary.
Hehe.
At least there was GP. XD
And SOME people seem to be getting the VERY WRONG idea of things...
DAMN.
Oh wells.
BUT HELL AM I TIRED AFTER RUNNING AROUND SO MUCH ON MY OWN.
Though i did enjoy three days of no korean shit.
Stacey's performance yesterday was awesome!
Duffy's already in Singapore ya'll! :)
And as for the RJ humor...
OMG, OMG, OMG. :P
And of course, again, i was right about something.
I'm actually going to miss school.
OMG.
Haha.
But i am meeting the drama peeps at Lot One tomorrow for the scriptwriting!
YAYNESS.

MELLYBABE!

QUACK! Oops. Did i just say that?

What's this? Hmm... JERK and ???

It's It's !!!!!!!!!!!! ZOMG.

Firstly i would like to say, UNGLAM. XD My second counsellor, the boy tester and who facilitated the taking of a photo of the boy in the picture before this.
NOTE: I am not a stalker. I simply used this method to show him (green t-shirt dude) to my sister. Please understand this.

My (actually our) lousy carbohydrate model. :P

I'm so nice. I take pictures where people's faces can't really be seen. X)

Hehe. Till next time! :)

It's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now.

2009-03-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

Am i not there anymore?
Cause i don't know where i am in your life.
I can't help that i'm feeling this way.
Nothing's happening...
So it isn't inside anymore...
I've been waiting...
I'm still waiting...
But maybe not anymore.
Cause i'm really tired waiting standing in the pouring rain hoping you'll come shelter me...
I'm cold and wet.
I'm going home.
To my bed and my bunny.
Trying to find the right words.
So that i at least know my umbrella should be in my bag for now...
Till that person on the white horse comes...

Be my escape!

2009-03-06T19:44:00.003+08:00

Hey!!!
DAMN TIRING week.
I didn't know i was in for this shit in JC.
HAHA.
There was chem test today!
I think i did pretty well...
I think. XD
I miss my beloved dot. X(
I got no one to consult but people who are just as clueless as me.
And stupid donald duck just dashes off after lesson.
Teacher, PFFT.
Drama was short today.
And i hope they are not going to put 2 skits in 20 mins.
There goes good storyline time and MY LINES. X(
OMG.
I don't even want to talk about PE.
I nearly puked on thursday.
GOLLY GEE.
I LOVE SCHOOL.
AND IT'S SO FUN having boys in the school. (I'm SOOO not despo.)
Bully, entertainment and lists. XD
Haha.
And there insane crazy people everywhere.
Gotta love that. X)
I'm going to miss my drama and class mates man.
Every weekend.
I'm just gonna think about you them every time i feel invisible and insanely miserable.
It's my escape from irrationality in the home and loneliness in church.
And there are some things i also, just gotta do...
I must cause i can't take it much longer...
I'm too tired to type out everything that has happened this week...
BUT HELL WAS IT FUN!
Funny, crazy and everything else thrown in!
I hope it keeps gettin' better. :)

Eternally grateful.

2009-03-01T13:33:00.002+08:00

I'm not in CJC.
And i have to say, i'm really quite happy i'm not.
I don't hate cj or anything it's just that.
I think the history might repeat itself...
And i definitely don't want that...

I've been really busy over the week.
BOY i really didn't expect jc to be so OMG.
But it is.
PJ really is interesting.
Different people.
And a chance to be new, and me.
I was really really happy on friday.
Cause after school i had some really good company...
Like really good. :)
For once i kind of felt like i really wasn't alone.
Though i'm still getting to know my classmates...
I'm just so grateful...
So very much... :)

It means a lot.
I can't believe i feel so great in school...
I have somewhere i can feel a little happy and at peace...
Without my mum's insane ways.
Without having to worrying about people gossiping about you.
Without having to worry where i fit on busy schedules...
Without being invisible...

Tomorrow is another day. :)

KOREAN DRAMA )(&^%$#$%^&()_(*&^%$#

2009-02-21T22:16:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired of feeling this way...
MY MUM IS KILLING ME.
EVER SINCE SHE STARTED WATCHING HER KOREAN SHIT SHE'S BEEN KOREAN THIS AND KOREAN THAT GETTING EMO OVER EVERY LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT.
SHE CAN'T UNDERSTAND AN ACCIDENT.
SHE MAKES MY SISTER AND I SOUND LIKE A BURDERN.
SHE SWEARS A LOT.
SHE NEVER THINKS SHE'S WRONG.
SHE STRESSES MY DAD OUT THOUGH HIS CONDITION DOESN'T NEED ANYMORE OF THIS KIND OF SHIT.
I DON'T BLOODY KNOW WHO SHE IS ANYMORE.
WELL I DON'T THINK SHE'S MY MOTHER.
I've been trying SO DAMN HARD to control my anger and sadness.
YOU KNOW WHAT?!
I'm HUMAN too and i can't take that much SHIT either.
I'M POOPED, YA HEAR ME?!
I'm 100000000% against korean dramas.
That's how much i hate them.
ANTI-KOREAN DRAMAS.

If i were a boy.

2009-02-21T14:19:00.004+08:00

I LOVE DRAMA YA'LL. XD

Hey everyone.
I feel a bit sad and happy.
It's complicated again.
It's cause there are,
Two people
Two places
No time
No understanding
And i'm not sure where i fit in now...
But thank goodness i always have my counsellor.
Dunno how to spell.
THANKS KEITH! X)

School's fun except for one thing which i don't wish to waste my time with.
HAHA YAY.
The guys are damn funny and weird.
FREE ENTERTAINMENT. XD
My cute count is still at five. XD
But i'm sure it'll increase.
Hopefully.
DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA.
LIGHTS CAMERA ACTION.

READY? OKAY! XD
MISS YOU DRAMA PEEPS. X)

When walls are built, stand strong and expand your ground.

2009-02-14T19:05:00.003+08:00

You know suddenly i just don't feel so good...
It's been two weeks and i iwas super high yesterday...
But now as i'm looking through facebook,
i feel as though a wall has been built and i'm outside them...
I still remember how last year,
everyone was like "I don't want to go to (this JC)"
Bla bla bla and on and on with the rumours.
Well most people seemed to have landed up there and appealed there.
How people change.
I'm not complaining,
but i never had issues with that school and i never minded it.
But because i just fell short.
I'm where i am.
Though i must say i'm pretty happy.
But it just feels like cause everyone is talking about it.
I don't know anything about that place...
It feels as though i have to build a new life...
Which i am doing to better myself.
And throw away my past.
However hard i try to be nice.
It somehow seems like i still always have to find out the hard way.
I wonder when it will get better.

I had SOOO much fun yesterday.
I found new friends.
I danced and played with them.
We talked we laughed.
We cheered our hearts out.
I even went high on green tea! X)
And even though my ankle was hurt.
It's going through slowly.
But hopefully we'll come through. :)
SO3 OH YEA!

WAR!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

I'm tired so this is going to be short i think.
I miss my OG terribly now...
My class is okay but my OG was awesome.
HAHA. :)
Today was super tiring learning the mass dances and war games.
DAMN FUN.
And it was a super good workout.
HAHA. :)
Tomorrow is less tiring i think.
More dancing but hopefully less games.
Can't take it, too weak. XD
ANYWAY...
I made it into drama!!!!!!!!!! XD
YAY ME!
So did me awesome new friends. :)
ELI-CHAN AND QI-SAMA.
How can i ever forget you guys???!!!
LOVE YA LOTS TOO. :)
Thanks for spamming my cbox.
It was getting lonely. :)
It's Valentine's Day coming up.
And i have no plans.
Hmmm...
We ended so late today i couldn't go buy flowers for my new buddies... X(
Looks like it's something edible then. :)
I'm going to retire now.
Tomorrow is a long day.
Breaking record and stuffs.
Go URSA! :)

Pioneer ichciban WHAA??!!

2009-02-07T14:38:00.002+08:00

Haha.
Hey ya'll!
School has started.
Yes it's pretty cool.
Except that it's super far away.
1. I made some super cool and pretty international friends.
2. THERE'S an AWESOME mall near my school! :) I went mini shopping there yesterday with my new friend melanie. X)
3. I may be joining drama which is super fun.
4. There is a cute guy in my OG. HAHAHAHA.
5. The guys are pretty funny in their own ways. Just funny or blur.

Now for the bad part.
SO MANY LIANS AND BENGS.
SAVE MY SOUL.
I miss english speaking people.
Haha.
And i miss my MG friends terribly.
Thank goodness for the MG bond.
We'll see each other soon i'm sure. :)
Anyway school work seems pretty tough but i'm going to study hard. :)
I'll try my best. :)
Wish me luck!
More orientation next week.
Stupid PE.
And mass dance.
Sounds exciting!
NOT.
That only applies for PE.

Have a great weekend everyone!

2009-01-25T14:53:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD.
My mummy just pissed me off again this morning.
Don't get me into it.
I'll probably slap someone mistake like i did in the morning.
Sorry kevin!!! X(
Your cantoring was great today.
Better than before. :)

Anyway the weather is pretty nice today.
My kind of weather so i'm trying not to kill myself here. :)
Maybe i'm going to beach later.
Maybe i'm going to my grandma's. :)

Yesterday we had our reunion dinner.
Cause my grandma had dialysis the next morning at 2am.
SO WTH but can't be helped.
The COUSINS! came over! :)
SO FUN. X)
Miss them already.
Luqas is SUPER CUTE.
And the sisters were carrying COACH bags.
I'm so proud. X)
Haha.

Well i'm of to take a nap i think and play some of my sister's 'TANG TANG'
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
Xing Nian Quai Le, Wan Shi Ru Yi!
I think i got that right. XD

2009-01-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

I feel something coming on.
Revolution.

And i've got a new friend.
Confidence.

Who am i to...

2009-01-20T20:54:00.002+08:00

I feel like i'm going to explode into a million pieces.

My parents think i'm not troubled by my results.
It's been 8 days.
Only 2 people to realise how stressed and worried i am.

I remember my mum say, "I'm proud of you cause you did better than your prelims" on the day i got my results.
I was crying.
A few days later she says, "I've nothing to be proud of, I'm so disappointed..."
She cries.
But i can only cry in my room.

My dad, when people ask about my results he says, "Anyway life moves on, there's still time to change."
But at home it's another 'Are you proud of your results?' talk.
I TRIED.
I really did.
If life moves on, why does he keep coming back to the same old thing?
I get it already.
Am i supposed to cry 24/7?
Of course i'm upset, I didn't expect THIS.
But just because i look like i'm not upset, i'm not upset?

I'm so tired.
I'm so beat up.
My heart feels so heavy it's going to fall into my stomach.
This is worse than the O's.
My mum's disappeared into korean oblivion.
My dad thinks we don't care about our future.
What am i supposed to say when i'm scolded then?
I'd like them to tell me.
Cause they'll always have something to say to what we say.
It's like :
WE'RE ALWAYS WRONG.
THEY'RE ALWAYS RIGHT.

I'm trying SO HARD not to get angry...
But...
I don't know if i can take this much longer.

FuN!!!....

2009-01-20T12:45:00.002+08:00

Heyo.
Today my sister's friend is coming over to go swimming.
But i can't go! X(
WWWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Though kevin is coming over to play!
YAAAY. :)
But me tummy hurts...
AND SHE COOKED FISH CURRY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
WWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I want a hair cut.

Killing Time.

2009-01-18T22:59:00.003+08:00

I saw this video of the Jo Bros 'Killing Time' before their movie release.
I SO KNEW JOE WAS GOING TO DO SOMETHING RETARDED.
He took the freaggin clock from the wall and used a baseball bat to smash it ending with him saying, "Killing Time".
WHOO.
WAY TO MAKE MY DAY. XD

Anyways.
Frannypoo and jus jus came over yesterday.
SO FUN. :)
Thanks guys for coming!
Loved the company.
Hardly anyone comes... X(
COME MORE.
WE'LL play football instead of basketball!
And i'll take you to frolick fran!!!
PEACE PROMISE. XD
SNAKES AND LADDERS!
LOVE.

HOKAY.
Remember how the last time there was this dude on the bike who asked me for directionas and said my bike was nice?
HE'S BACK.
DUM DUM DUM DUM!!! *cue eerie music*
His name is stalkermmm.
Yes the m's are delibarate.
Ask Jae Joong why. XD
Stupid Korean SHIT.
On with the story.
I was walking back with franny after getting jus jus from the bus stop and then he was near my place and he was like "Oh hey! Do you know where's Jln Ketumbit?"
I was like WTSHIT.
You've cycled here a million time and YOU DON'T KNOW?!
SO i gave him the directions hoping he'd go,
BUT he asked "You sure?"
SHIT.
GO AND CHECK MORON.
BUT of course being nice i just said yes.
AND THEN HE ASKED FOR MY NAME.
SHIT SHIT.
LIKE WHY THE SHIT WOULD I WANT TO TELL HIM????????!!!!!!!!!!!
So i said i couldn't tell him and started walking.
Pissed.
Then he asked again "Sure you don't have a name."
Then i said NO.
I SWEAR I WANTED TO FLING MY SLIPPER AT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then later for some stupid reason he shows up the basketball court after we're done bballing and playing at the playground.
LIKE CURSE MY STINKIN LUCK.
Fran was like "OMG. Is that freakkin guy again! I saw him in the car!"
I WAS LIKE OMJ SHIT SHIT.
AND HE KEPT LOOKING OVER.
SHITTIN HELL.
Then my genius sister said she knew another way home and led us to a dead end.
WTH.
In the end we took cover near the shops.
BUT HE WAS STILL LOOKING.
PHILISTINE.
Me and fran were like OMGing what's his promblem?
Seriously.
Fran totally agreed he had issues.
Look at people so intently.
HE CAN STILL TRY AND FLIRT SOMEMORE.
F.
I hope I DON'T HAVE TO SEE HIS IRRITATING FACE AGAIN.
AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super late.

2009-01-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!
THIS IS FRIGGIN LATE,
but oh well. :)
I'm tired to thank people.
But i'm sure the people whom the thanks belong to, know who they are. :)
I love you guys loads. :)
You are all the bestest!
I had a pretty good week except for my parents scolding me for not doing much wrong. :(
I went over to Franny's!
I love her place!
It's so windy! :D
And i played the Game of Life for the first time in my life!
HAHA.
SO FUN. XD
I kept lending on the good spots!
Anyway results are out this Monday and i hope it's good for everyone! :)
I hope the week will be swell too! :)
Good luck ya'll!

My reality.

2008-12-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

Today.
Well actually a few hours ago.
I was in church in the morning.
And i felt so terribly alone.
Are they my friends or am i too quiet?
I don't know...
At times they are so nice...
Yet times i'm invisible...
And at times i feel like a replacement...
So which one am i?
While whispers remain in the circle...

Then there's that stupid boy.
That one.
The one i hate so much.
But the still someone i want to talk to,
to be close to.
But everytime i have to try to keep myself from falling,
and knocking my head so hard,
to be blinded.
And feeling sadness not belonging to me...

I'm camping at franny's this coming weekend.
It's nice to have someone.
To feel at home.

Don't take my heart and put it on a shelf.

2008-12-01T13:13:00.003+08:00

Hellooo.
I am tired of blogging and also the hols STINK.
Big time.
I've decided i'll try bombard my holidays to run away...
I'm taking on my world from the driver's seat.
I don't know why things are so difficult.
Just to go out.
Just to hug.
Just to have you right next to me.
Penguins are a hindrance,
that can't be helped.
I'm tired...
So i'm taking the back seat...

2008-11-19T17:40:00.002+08:00

I'm going to be bored these next few days...
My baby is away so... :(
Oh well.
I'm going to try to have fun. :)
I'n gonna learn as many songs as i can on the guitar and piano!!!
Ooh and excercise!
Yay me!!! :)
And supplement excess bordem with Jo bro and Click 5 videos.
HAHAHA.
And Avartar at 7.30pm every weekday night!
AWESOMENESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :):):)

Scream.

2008-11-18T10:59:00.002+08:00

I don't know why.
But everything just seems to collapse after the o levels...
I don't have time to spend with the person i want to.
And i don't know why he's becoming more and more different...
Maybe i do but...
Poor justina dear is broke. Lol.
Maybe i might just, just transfer church
and get the job i want to.
There seems like there's nothing in this holiday for me after all...
Like my parents say to be of use,
Maybe i should really start on those encyclopedias...

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things seem to come to an end?

Prayer.

2008-11-15T21:43:00.002+08:00

Heylo!
O's are over!!!
AND I'M BORED.
Haha.
Well not for long i reckon.
My parents want me to get a job so...
I'm nervous and i don't think i'm ready.
But i'll try. :)

Busy today.
I was helping my dad mow the lawn and sweep.
Me and a mower.
Then i went to my grandma's. :)
TEA!:)
And i got a very pleasant one hour phone call from a friend quite far away...
So nice to hear from him again! :)
And your song ROCKS!!!
Seriously!!!
Stones and pebbles.
Ok. Whatever.
It's good to have someone who can help.
Thanks so much. :)
Also, i was playing pokemon the whole DAY yesterday.
POKEMON.
TELL ME ABOUT IT, OMJ.
I had a major headache after that.
But well.
It is good to be a kid.
On the last day i went out with jus jus, eli-chan, robin and najib.
It was fun but i could've done more if i wasn't so late!!!
Oh well.
The company was really nice.
And someone's shoulder was very comfortable... :)
Madagascar was da BOMB.
LOVE THOSE PYSCHOTIC PENGUINS.
NUMBER ONE FAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha.
Must watch movie people!

Anyway.
I gotta go!
I think that friend helped me clear up so much today.
Thanks again really... :)
I think i'm one step closer to that realization. :)

2008-11-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!
Just two more papers left!
For some, one...
Hang in there! :)

The last few months have been confusing exhausting and lot more...
My mum's korean change growing annoyance.
My dad's i don't know, difference.
My sister's korean madness and occasional irrinoyingnance.
And me...
Well i'm trying not to lose my self control...
I'm trying to be real good...
I'm trying to break a lot of bad habits...
And really i'm struggling with a lot of changes happening to me...
And i can't even see, to reach my dreams...
I'm trying to change.
I hope i won't change that much.
Just enough to grow and still have my friends with me.
Everything is really complicated...
My feelings and yea...
I just pray everything will go well and God helps me.

Everything will be ok, ne?

2008-10-31T19:14:00.002+08:00

I'm pissed.
Oh yes i am.
Why else would i blog when i have 7 more papers?
Anyway.
An ADULT has been pissing me off.
No it's not my parents,
but i swear she's irritating the hell out of me and i can't study properly.
Stupid money face shit.
I do owe her but still.
She knows i'm busy.
She knows i'm taking my o's.
And i can't reply her stupid messages or calls cause of my bill.
And then she starts going all over her head.
She's lucky i'm not in america.
I'd sue for harassment.
What a irritant annoying piece of toot.
I'm already being very nice with my language.
I don't know why she can't be patient!
Hello!
Not as if i'm not ever going to pay you back!
Go gollyahead and try throw me behind bars cause i have done nothing wrong.
I'd wish she leave me alone and just wait DAMMIT.

14 more days.
Smelling freedom.
Well actually not that free after.
At least i'll be less stressed and get some good sleep.
And some good fun. :)
Hope the next few papers continue to go well!
Hang in there everyone else! :)
Quoting sir:
'Just vwhack the paper!' XD

XOXO

A little bit longer and i'll be fine...

2008-10-12T12:11:00.004+08:00

I wish i had not seen them,
them face to face.
Crying shouldn't be natural!
I tried so hard to keep it in.
He was there.
He was there.

And just when i needed it the most,
confusion found me.

He came to look for me.
he stood by my side.
There was no beat, no time, no butterflies.

These four walls.
They whisper to me.
The three brothers who never fail to cheer me up.
Their music moves me.
A blue bunny.
The gifts of friendship.
My Lord and I.
A place of serenity for me.

A night to remember.

2008-10-10T15:45:00.002+08:00

Well I had to come back and post.
Today,
is the last year of my MG life and all other people in MG.
And here i am dying for the O levels to be over
and wishing that the playground that i used to appear in,
would somehow return.
I am definintely going to miss MG!!!
HAHA.
Frannypoo's crazy laughing.
Justina's neverending apppetite and 'I HATE THE JONAS BROTHERS!' (She doesn't mean it.) :D
Eli's nagging so mummy-like. :D
I wonder who's going to take care of me when i have stomach aches?
Sandra's, NOOOOO! CANNOT!
Random outbursts and her put a lot of chilli in my soup but later cannot eat.
Stella who's be my friend since forever. :)
She's all grown up now.
Sniff.
QI SAMA, FEI WONG REED AND SNOEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'LL MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(
Haha. I'm sure we'll always meet up now and then. :)
PLAY BASKETBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
A lot of other things...
OH GOSH.
Too many to list.
10 years worth.
It outnumbers my jonas posters. X.X
There's so much i want to say.
But the past two years i think probably was the icing on the cake. :)
The 3M/4M spirit!
If there was any. :D

About my previous post.
People have showed concern.
Haha.
Thanks guys. :)
I'm really ok.
My mind has just got too many things it right now...
Asides from studies,
but yea, i'm really really confused...
But i will have to leave it till after the O's.
I can't even sleep properly at night...
So i'm sleepy and tired.=
But really thanks for being so nice to me. (like eli!)
So many thing have changed that has changed me too.
It's difficult when people say bad things about you or don't even see you...
Especially in God's house.
But i'm sure he'll guide and help me...
And i got great friends i can always count on.
Though they are all so far away! :)

I really really want to go overseas and study so,
i can do what i've always wanted to.
And it's NOT mainly beacuse of the Jonas Brothers.
Please pray for me guys!
I hope i can! :)
I'll definitely always comeback to visit...
Cause i'll miss you if i do go.

10 days more.
KILL ME.

2008-10-06T15:56:00.003+08:00

Hey!
I'm back.
Firstly i want to tell what's going on in my mind right now.
My mind is telling me,
WTH are you doing blogging?!
So i'm going to make this quick.
There's so much to fill in on.
Feast Day, the day of Robin's creation, and a lot of other stuff.
Feast day was INDESCRIBABLE.
HAHA.
Good times! Good times!
Something was missing this year though so... :(
That was not great...
I loved the dancing and camwhoring part.
OMJOMJOMJ. :D
I especially liked the expression on daniel's face when i surprised him on the dancefloor.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Check pic on facebook! :)
Robin's creation.
Welli couldn't celebrate.
But i'm sure he had an awesome party! :)

Yesterday...
Something happened...
NO.
It's not bad.
BUT.
BUT.
I must say.
I'm really really confused and distraught...
Only my jie jie, angeline and justina know.
Haha.
It's driving me nuts.
So, i have decided to put matters of the heart behind me for now...
Did i mention it's baffling too?
Lol.
I shall pluck petals off flowers.
Even so with that declaration.
It's bothering me.
Yep it is.
Someone save me man.

HAHA.
OMJ.
Me and fran are officially lao shi's idols now!!!!!!!!!!!
I'VE EARNED IDOL STATUS MAN!!!!!!!!!
AWESOME.
ESPECIALLY FROM LAO SHI!!!!!!!!
Who cares if it was sacarstic.
I shall act blur. (Learnt from dan the man.)
Everyone who knows how much i get picked on by her.
All i gotta say is,
YEAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!
Hehe.

Good luck to everyone taking the O's!
I'll probably end up in a stupid JC.
BUT I'M GONNA BE CRAZY AND TRY MY BEST. :)
I think i will miss and not miss MG.
It's mostly the friends and the love. :)
Friday.
Friday.

Till after the O's! :)
XOXO.

2008-09-18T22:41:00.002+08:00

Haha.
I can't believe it but...
the O levels are so close.
I actually like some of Miley cyrus's songs from Breakout.
Not her voice though.
I think i'm seriously gettin over the JoBros.
BTW.
They said they would never date a fan.
Can't blame them.
Their fans are kinda wild, but we all know the real reason.
LIARS.
BOOHOO.
I MISS MY ROBBIE POOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My mum is crazy enough to allow me to study overseas.
I actually got a fish bone stuck in my throat yesterday.
Even after what happened to penguin.
So troublesome and painful.
Well it's out.
OMG.
And the Britain's Got Talent breakdancer whom i was rooting for,
the cute 14 year who was knocked out on the semifinals last year.
HE WON THIS YEAR.
AWESOME. :D
He's my new screen saver. :D
I still like to look at the JoBros.
But i'm just kinda pissed at them.
Anyway.
So much has been happening but using the com just makes me more sweaty.
Global warming.
Stupid.
So stupid why no one cares.
Anyway.
Gotta go sleep now.
Nighty night.
XOXO

Bang a Drum.

2008-09-13T22:08:00.002+08:00

I hate.
I seem to hate eveything now.
I hate me.
I hate being skinny because i get scolded for that and it's not because i don't eat, but my high metabolic rate.
I hate justice.
Cause there just isn't any.
I hate my hormones.
They give me the hideous zits on my face.
I hate the hair on my skin.
Not my head
I hate my teeth for being super sensitive.
I hate being so inflexible.
I hate ACS boys.
Can't explain it.
Just do.
I hate gossipers.
I hate being stuck here.
I hate not being able to pursue my dream.
I hate people who put me down.
I hate people who take my stuff without permission.
I hate that i can't see robin.
I hate studying constantly.
I hate that i can't fly.
I hate bananas.
My Mum. UGH>>>WTH.
I loathe my existence.

I'm just feeling so whatever.
I'm sorry...

2008-09-06T14:30:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling better today!
BUT.
Still kinda like whatever with the O's coming and prelims results.
Being stuck at home wreaks!
When I could be out with my friends shopping bowling, whatever.
Anything is better than this.
I just want to get into a dance class and fly to US.
PRONTO.

I updated the music. :)
People i think are getting bored with Demi Lovato.
OH WAIT.
They haven't seen the movie yet.
BUT i have! :D
Anyway there are about 10 songs to pick from if you're annoyed with some of them. :)
I will be putting up a more upbeat song player when i've got more time.
And when i'm in the right mood.

Oh no.
My dad's back.
DIE.
BYE!

Breakout.

2008-09-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

I feel that.
I don't know what to feel.
Hate.
Love?
I want Him to tell me.

She glares at me with utter disgust in her eyes,
yet those same eyes can appear so gentle and maybe wise.
She deams me stupid,
an ignorant child.
Still she lays down in front of me,
what precious stones!
She threatens and makes my blood boil,
and now i have been jailed.
For no wrong doings,
just having no rights of what to say and what not to say.
These different people of the same body,
which one is it really?
I want Him to choose.
Her face is unknown to me.

I want to fly.

I want to be me.

And i want MY mummy.

Like everything i'll never find again, at the bottom of the ocean.

2008-08-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

Gosh.
Prelims are over.
I can't believe it.
And now the O's are coming.
It's.
SCARY.

I'm terrified of my prelim results honestly.
I screwed the quite a bit. X(
DIE.

Anyway, I went to the Comex fair on thurs with my dad after going with rachel to west mall to eat. :)
Too many people.
Too much stuff.
Too much of an aching back.
Not my kinda thing but i still went to look see. :)

On friday after teachers' day,
Justina and i went to AMK hub to shop
and we ate at Ichiban Sushi!
How awesome. :D
We even messed up my soup/broth after we were done.
Hehe.
Playign with the egg.
I bought 2 really nice rings too.
I love. XD

Oh gosh and i'm falling asleep looking at the computer screen now.
Tomorrow rhen.
XOXO

The 7 things she hates about you!

2008-08-16T13:17:00.003+08:00

OMJ.
I can't believe i'm saying this,
and i can't believe everything i read but,
NICK.
YOU BITCH.
How could you do this to me???!!!
I don't really know if you're such a person but...!!!
And I actually feel kinda sorry for Miley.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.
YOU>>>
PHILISTINE!
Here I am trying to convince myself you're still one of the nicest guys on the planet.
Someone PLEASE tell me she's lying.
£$%^&*£$%^&*(@$%^&*()*&^%!@£$%^&*(£$%^&*(*^

Few papers down.
A few more to go.
I can't ever look at you again.
It's just too embarrassing.
I want to get out of here...

Every last word every single thing you say,

2008-08-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

It's Sunday!
I feel lethargic.
I want bubble tea.
And I want to see Robin.

But that's all pretty impossible.

Prelims are coming up so i can't post till the 28th.
Which is after my jie jie and dada's birthday.
So i'll probably have a lot to talk and complain about. :D

National Day was boring!
I missed Nathan Hartono's performance during the parade.
*sniffs*
And i caught heroes at 10!
AWESOME STUFF.
The new cute dude can fly!!! :D
And i spent the rest of the day studying.
Can you believe it?
Prelims suck.

Church was totally mellow.

Ooh ooh!
But today when i followed my maid to the shops near my place,
i cycled back.
And then there was this indian/caucasian looking guy.
Who was also cycling around the shops.
And then followed me near to my place.
Then he stopped and asked,
'Where's Jalan Jarak?'
(I nearly fell of my bike.)
Then i told him it was down the hill turn left or right but i wasn't very sure.
Then he said,
'Are you sure?'
I didn't know (dumb dumb) so i told him not really and apologised.
Then he said giving this really nice smile,
'It's okay. Thanks. And by the way nice bike.'

That was pretty awesome. :)
Haha.
My maid is so convinced that he was trying to hit on me.
Lol.
My female penguin just said.
'Who's that??!!'
In her loud 'I know it's a boy you're talking to tone.'
And then her really 'nice' remark came.
'You mean you stayed here all these years (as if it is super long) and you don't know where Jalan Jarak is?!'
Thanks penguin.
Real peachy of you.

Off to dinner!
And then back to the pages. :(

My Shoes.

2008-08-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

Oh my JONAS.
I heard the acoustic version of Burnin' Up on AT Top 40.
On the first note.
Joe was way OFF PITCH.
I was like ZOMJ.
It's not even the middle of the song and he goes off pitch. X.X
I feel like crying.
I couldn't even hear Nick!

Anyway.
I found out on wed that the guy in my tuition class thought that i am...
Brazilian!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
ZOMJ.
So DUMB.
And the next part is even better.
He thought my poppa was a gangster!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A GANGSTER!!!!!!!!!!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was brushing my teeth when my friend told me,
my toothbrush fell out of my mouth.

Hello me brazilian?
My sister must so be puetorican.
Or however you spell it. :D
But that means i look different at least!
If he said i was Malay.
His body would be floating in some canal with a knife in his back. :P
No offense to the Malays.
I just don't look like one that's all. :)

How in the world can my dad be a gangster?
COMMON LA!!!
Doesn't even have like some gangster tattoo or something.
HAHAHAHA.
Weirdo he is.
Thanks siti for telling me.
Brightened up my day damn a lot. :D

Summertime summertime,

2008-08-06T13:29:00.004+08:00

From the creators of Independence Day,
Firestar productions bring you Coincidence Day!
IT RHYMES.
ZOMG. :D

On Monday.
Early in the morning frannypoo came to me with her confirmation picture.
And on the picture i saw,
besides her cute pretty face,
was the donkey's best friend.
I WAS LIKE ZOMG!
HE'S IN YOUR CHURCH???!!!
And she was like yea.
He's from St Pat's.
Of course i knew that cause i spoke to him before and i still have his number.
Scary.

Later in the day headed for the rest of the killer day,
I was on the bus staring out the window.
Then i hear a voice.
I think i knew it was his voice but i decided not to check.
Then at RJ,
Stacey got on!!!
YAY!!! XD
I just get super happy when i see someone i know. :)
And I confirm later that it was indeed his voice.
Freaky!

When i come home,
my sister tells me she saw Sandra on the bus.
She's stacey sister by the way.

One Word.
Awkward!~

I'm just wating for Kevin to say 'That's two words.'
It's a Camp Rock secret. XD

Yesterday was Major Brain Workout day!
Seriously.
Monday too actually!
I had the A maths mock paper that actually didn't kill me.
I forgot what cosec was!
ZOMG.
Then i had to immediatly rush off to Sir's to do the e maths papers two
I stayed there till 11pm!!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE THE INSANITY???!!!
In the end i couldn't be bothered to do the graph question.
So i just threw away 10 marks. :D
I made super careless mistakes in paper one.
LIKE SUPER SUPER CARELESS.
But i still topped the class.
91%.
Yay me!!! XD

Yesterday.
I had the nicest dream destroyed by the most horrendous dream.
I was hanging out with the Click 5.
LIKE WOA.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!
(I can imagine justina, frannypoo and eli-chan going like WHATEVER just about now)
Anyway,
I was talking to Kyle alone ok???!!!
LIKE YAYNESS!!!
He lookes so gorgeous and sounded so suave.
Then suddenly all went black.
And then the stupid Joker just appeared out of nowhere and tried to kill me.
For the rest of the night i couldn't sleep cause i was trying to run away from mad murderer.
I'm terrified of him cause i highly dislike (hate) clowns.
And lookalikes.
Btw.
I haven't seen The Dark Knight yet.

Anyway.
I'll have to go now.
It's English now.
Yawn.
And frannypoo is beside me pestering me to post. XD

XOXO.

She' outta this world.

2008-08-01T22:35:00.004+08:00

I haven't posted for a long time!
I've had so much on my mind and hands.
Now i have a fever.
And i think there's something wrong with my stimulus.
Sorry.
Just did a bio test today.

I had a walk this thursday with my daddy and sapphire.
I think she was walking/running me actually.
I didn't get to see my kick-ass darling but oh well.
There's time. :)
I learnt that my dog isn't a dog because,
she's terribly afraid to jump over drains.
Can't believe it. -.-

OOH.
I bought these pretty flowers on tuesday with my mum and sis at thomson.
Lovely.
I saw another exotic pretty flower that was like 4.50 for 4 flowers.
I bought them. :D
Don't say i waste money!
I love flowers ok?

People have been feeling emo this week
plus i have problems of my own to solve.
It's quite messy.
But the corrective mechanism has kinda finally kicked in.
At least for the emoing robin. :)
I'm so glad you're happy again. :)
I am becoming restless over here wanting to hug you.

Wow.
Exactly a week from founders.
NO pics.
Go check my facebook people!
All there. :)
Founders was great.
I felt a little like UGH I DIDN'T DRESS UP SO MUCH BUT EVERYONE DID.
I WAS LIKE WEARING MY CONFIRMATION DRESS.
So regret not wearing daniel yam.
But i got over it.
The food was okay.
But everyone looked great. :)
The memories count the most.
All my friends were there so YAY.

AND sandra and justina plus me had gone to soulgarden that day to eat.
FOR 2 HOURS.
ZOMG.
Sandra took like SOOO much food!!!
But should cook clams. :)
UNLIKE SOME PEOPLE I HAD TO FEED. :D
And in the end her tom yam soup was too hot for her. -.-
Lol.
SANDRA.
Next time order clear normal soup ok?

More pics tomorrow.
Needa rest ya'll.
XOXO.

Val, Me, Mrs Ong (our principal (:), Fran, Justina.

Mrs Ong wore the dress my mum and i were looking at! I WANNA HAVE IT!!! XD

Running out of time.

2008-07-22T20:42:00.004+08:00

O's are getting closer.
And i'm getting more pimples.
I walked in the rain to chem tuition yesterday.
Right after school.
I had no time for lunch.
I came back home.
And ate the soba my dad just brought back.
Then to A maths tuition.
After A maths.
I have dinner.
Cram lit.
Bathe.
Do more lit.
Surprisingly not sleepy.
I couldn't get up this morn. XD

Oh well.
The maths mock paper was challenging today.
REALLY really challenging.
I don't think i would do that well.
But i like the challenge.
Yes people.
I'm weird.
I think e maths is easier than a maths.
NO help to sally. :D
I should be updating my skin too now that the pic's evidently disappeared.
Back to work now people.
Chop chop! :)

Fruit of yesterdays labour. Literally. The mini guava was from my chem teacher's tree. :D

I just want to play my music.

2008-07-18T18:13:00.003+08:00

Yesterday. WAS AWESOME.
For just one reason. :)
I told like half the club today.
Dorothy was like, 'Who goes for lit seminars?'
Eli-chan could tell from my excitement this morn.
and justina was just like WHATEVER.
I know she just jealous cause she wants more love from me.
Hehee.
Toot she is. XD

Today was BORING.
Totally mundane.
I came to school for just PE and bio.
I had a stomachache the whole day!!!
And the racial harmony concert was so boring,
i was folding paper stars.
I spoilt some. X(
It was also completely disappointing that our girls had no performance.
I felt as if the twinning schools had to do all the work.
So poor thing! :(
But the indian dances were HOT. :D
Hehee.

Now i'm feeling horrible after my dad was saying how hardworking all the girls are in my school.
I'm feeling like a loser who can't study for nuts.
Everytime i see that goody two-shoes rachel chew's face,
i just feel like slapping her cause i know my parents want me to be like that too.
But no way will i ever be dedicated to my studies like her.
It's bloody ridiculous!
Not that i hate her or anything,
but just because of people like her,
they are driving people like me nuts!
I can't stand Singapore.
How everything is based upon academics.
It's purely annoying.
How teachers like the smart girls and they don't like the less capable.
WHATEVER.

I'm predicting that i'll be really crazy in a few years from now.
Or maybe even sooner.

J'aime ma Robin! :)

Sally doesn't know her math.

Say "It's close enough to perfect for me."

2008-07-15T19:57:00.004+08:00

It's the end of chinese today.
WOW.
But i'm not rejoicing.
I think i screwed my last chance for redemption.
Really...
I cried in the bus.
And there was this CJ guy staring at me like he didn't see a girl cry before.
I was quietly sobbing.
Like i seriously dare bawl in public.
For people who know what ny emo face looks like,
they know it's really NOT pretty.
The last time was after mid-years and Justina and Eli-chan did a marvel in cheering me up.
And i think they were kinda freaked out when they saw i was about to cry.
No one is class has seen me cry.
Except Eli and Francesca.
Otherwise i'm the retardedly Jonas/Click five bimbo person.
Jie took me to mac's near the Penguins school to eat,
me eat the happy meal.
And vicky no eat happy meals.
Which i might add was kinda ironic,
cause i totally wasn't happy.
Then it rained.
-.-
Like thanks God.
We were stranded so we called the Penguin
And we still had to walk in the rain to cross the road to wait for the Penguin.
DAGNABIT.

Facebook and friendster will now also be in hibernation.
Permanently.

And i don't think that's the only think that will be permanent...

Tomorrow's Chem mock paper and Bio paper 2 mini mock.
Like whatever.
It's still an exam.
Hell don't teacher's understand.
"It's only a mock paper girls!"
If it is that unimportant,
is it okay if i fail?
No right?
DUH.
Hello?
Anyone at home up there?
SHEESH.
I think Miss lau hates me or something now.

Time to die people!
Val says the world will end in the year 2012.
That doesn't really sound to bad actually...
Justina and Eli.
Stop telling me to stop it about dying lol.
Not real one la k? :)
Love you loads.

I'm stopping ballet at the end of July!
WAH!!! :'( *sniff*
It's only temporary...
But,
I can't stand that!

You Are Ballet

You are quite introverted. You enjoy keeping to yourself and cultivating your talents.

You are dedicated and focused. If practice makes perfect, you're willing to keep practicing.

While some people may dismiss you as boring, you can be quite edgy and interesting.

You can fit in almost anywhere... and your style ranges from conservative to funky.

What Dance Are You?

She said, i said.

2008-07-14T15:50:00.003+08:00

Heylo people!
Can you believe it if i say school actually wasn't too bad today?
Except fot the first period.
Though i must say it wasn't as bad as i expected.

I knew it was recipe for disaster as soon as qi-sama called last night with VERY DISTURBING news.
Not to mention,
Larine sent me the wrong file.
So i couldn't even prepare.
Nevermid her litle faults.
What i was really pissed off at was the pretending of the Gossip Girl.
Yes.
The Gossip Girl.
I don't like to bad mouth people but i really can't take irresposiblity.
Not that i aren't sometimes but not finishing homework etc.
But i won't do it if affects others.
Well, Gossip Girl was apparently 'sick' and ended up in the sick bay conviently during first period.
WOW.
Like i couldn't tell.
I don't have that good evidence that she wasn't sick,
but seriously!
Who strolls into class 1/4 way (not even half) into chem and look happy but is sick?!
COMMON MAN!!!
Not to mention,
someone even told she called saying she didn't want to turn up today at all.
And she was so obviously trying to escape the presentation with her sore throat last week.
Cannot present because of sore throat.
That's N-E-W.
Cna't she say even a word?
Cannot to present but can gossip still huh?
AMAZING.
If she's embarassed to present with us or something,
just walk out of the group and do your own presentation.
I'm NOT going to put her name on the essay.
If she asks,
i'm not going to tell her cause she jolly well knows why!
So instead of being mean to her.
I'm just going to dao her.
Don't care.
WEML.

I hate doing this but,
UGH!!!
SERIOUSLY!!!

The rest of the day was cool.
Mr Yeo was late and Vicky and Grace were reanacting his shocked face when he realised he forgot our period.
Lol.
Hilarious. XD
And it felt really good not sitting next to Kennymoo for once.
I didn't feel so pressured. :)
And i made stupid careless mistakes on my chem quiz.
I didn't finish drawing my ester cause i fell asleep.
WTH. -.-
-1 mark.
Oh well.
A Quiz is only a quiz.
Exams more important no? :)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you.

What Victoria Means

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.

You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.

Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

This is exactly where i'm supposed to be now.

2008-07-13T10:48:00.002+08:00

Song update! :)
No more hello beautiful. :(
What to do.
Change is good.
I'm sure the Jo Bros will be back.
Demi Lovato is close. :)
Camp Rock song this is.
I love it cause i can so relate to it.

Skin update soon too.
I think.
Not sure yet.

I'm in a UGH MY LIFE SUCKS! mood today,
so my post well be up to here today!
Hope you guys like the song! :)
Hugs and kisses!

Paper cut.

2008-07-11T17:53:00.004+08:00

Friday.
HELLO WEEKEND!

Like that's any better.
I just got back from slack club and i saw people in school with the teacher revising physics!
Way to spoil my day.
Well actually lao shi spoilt it when she poked me with her pen.
So toot.
All the bio is really really pissing me off.
I feel like a blonde with a hollow brain.
And dorothy says she doesn't have any brain.
SHEESH.

Not to mention i've been having stomach problems since like forever.
Even kennymoo thinks i look constipated.
My mum says it's just gastric.
YEA RIGHT!
What kinda gastric lasts for 2 weeks?
She totally doesn't care.
She just wants to watch her same korean show 8 million time over!
HELLO.
BORED MUCH?
Even i don't Jonas every day!

Justina!
My boyfriend!
Don't wear berms tomorrow please?
It totally won't compliment my outfit.
And i don't want to appear in the newspapers as having a sloppy boyfriend. XD
Tomorrow we will walk super fast k?
I shall teach you the art of shopping.
And picking non-ah lian outfits. :DD
GET SMART.
OMG.
CAN'T WAIT.
Deprived me.

97.6fm PLAYED THE JO BROS BURININ' UP!!! XD
It's malaysian radio station by the way.
THEY ROCK! :D
Well at least they are faster at updating their songs.
Seriously.
Singapore's slow.

The new NTUC at Thompson Plaza is cool!
They even have a really cool section for the wines.
Literally cool! :D
Can like sleep there.
Lol.

The world was such a wholesome place until,
Cruella,
Cruella de Vil.

They tell you a good girl is quiet.

2008-07-10T20:14:00.002+08:00

OH no.
The day is already almost gone.
I went to have honey dew and sago just now after school with jie jie.
HUU~
I love the little sago thing.
SO CUTE!
What the world do without sago? :D
I'm at my cousin's house now blogging.
After watching my sister surfing on the treadmill.
Don't ask.
Yes!~

It's confirmed Justina and Sandra will be joining at my table for Founders!
AWESOME.
And i'm taking my boyfriend Justina out shopping on sat.
EVEM MORE AWESOME. XD
Well actually qi-sama is my boyfriend.
Well then maybe i'm like some mistress. :P
It's either that or qi-sama is going gay. o.O
HAHA.
SO FUN!!! XD

Today,
school was school.
I slept through Edna Mode's lesson.
Like seriously.
MOOSES?
HA.
MOOSE.
COW.
DONKEY.
EDNA MODE.
FROG?
XD
PSYCH!

It rained today.
I love it when it rains! :)
It gives me time to think...
And unfortunately miss people even more and wish they were there to cuddle. :)
And so nice to sleep! :P

Gotta run now!
It's burnin' up in this room.
And i look antisocial.
Hugs and kisses!

I need to try to get to where you are.
Could it be,
you're not that far?

Here I am.

2008-07-06T17:33:00.002+08:00

Today's coming to end.

The funfair was fun!
Kinda.
Somewhat.
I'm still pissed with my throat.
Kevin!
My sister wants to get at Trevor for taking unglam pics!
Me too!!! XD
Everyone was real enthu at the song dedication booth.
With rubber duckies and dancinng...
Don't ask. XD
But t'was fun! :)
Sean i'm so going to get you for that song dedication.
I did like it in a sense...
BUT WHY DID YOU DO IT???!!!
I mean it's okay if everyone already knew or if they were all wearing ear plugs!
BUT THEY WEREN'T.
I bet 10 million odd people know now.
And Aunty Michelle didn't help by saying that i was at the booth and so was he.
'Yes, they are indeed in a -------------!...'
I can't remember the rest.
She had to say it with such enthusiasm.
That's when you don't need the enthuness.
Haiya.
Nevermind.
I still liebe Robin!
That sounds weird. X)
OOH OOH!
AND I REQUESTED BURNIN' UP!!!
YAY JONAS BROTHERS!!!
LOVE THEM.
Everyone looked pretty clueless since it is a new song and not out in asia yet.
That was pretty funny.
It feels good to be ahead. :P
Actually i had many more songs i love to dedicate.
But people would think i'm nuts and i also had barely any money. X(
Oh yea!
Kevin,
looks like i have more interesting news from the donkey! :D

And my cousin's birthday dinner is later,
I hope it doesn't turn into a mess.
But he's still my cousin. :)
Keeping my finger crossed!
It's at Holland.
Like,
far much?
Oh well what to do?

I walk in the room,
All I can see is you.
You're staring me down,
I know you feel it too.

When will things be good enough for you to see, all that we can be.

2008-07-05T15:51:00.003+08:00

IT'S THE WEEKEND!

And i'm terribly sick.
and i am still Victoria.
Right Kevin?
Yay. X(
And the funfair is tomorrow.
Double YAY. X(

Well I hope it will be fun if not i'm going to retreat!!!
OTHER people will be coming too so,
Yea.
I think i'm going to be bombarded a little.
I'm going to visit the song dedication booth, nanananana! :D

This week was well,
TRASHY.
Sally had a major problem in class and i seriously wanted to give her the WEML.
But i couldn't.
MOO.
Chinese oral was seriously WTH.
Inflation?
Gimme a break.
The lao shi was totally laughing at me when i said i didn't have a car.
Well, YEA. DUH.
Like who didn't know that.
I totally flipped.
And it didn't help that i knew Ye Lao Shi.
She was my Sec 1 Chinese teacher.
And choir teacher.
Which i so happened to be in.
I'm sure she must have remebered me.
After all my chinese name does only have two characters.
English oral on the other hand i felt was a breeze for me.
Though she interrupted me during picture discussion which made me kinda pissed.
It was about animals.
AGAIN.
I think our teachers love animals A LOT or something.
Idk.
Well at least my examiners weren't that scary.
It's over now.
So what's done is done. :)

Justina i'm still taking you out shopping!~
But must be home in time to watch Taking 5. XD
My cousins birthday is also tomorrow.
So i'm betting tomorrow will be pretty tight.
Yipee! :)
I hope i recover man.
Cause it sucks being sick.
And medication sucks too.

Been feeling lost, can't find the words to say
Spending all my time, stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I wanna be.
Oh, next to you... and you next to me...

This is real, this is me.

2008-06-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

I finally watched Camp Rock today.
I cried.
At the last part though.
And not because Joe kissed Demi, which was cut out from the movie anyway.

It's kind of complicated.
Maybe i'm just not confident enough...
But i guess not many people would understand...

Well at least they are showing Taking 5 on Youth Day on Kids Central.
Yayness! :)
Click Five awesomeness.
No Kyle though. :(

I'm still not sure if i'll still be leaving though...
I really want to and don't want to...
Forget it...

Dorothy!
Welcome to the Robin group!
Though the members are few,
we shall keep it that way. ;)
AND STOP bombarding me with questions.
Seriously.

Justina.
I'm going to take you shopping!~ :D

WEML.

2008-06-26T23:15:00.003+08:00

The female Penguin is in such a bad mood today.
Can't take it.
Don't even want to talk about it.
Drama queen award goes to her today.

On the bright the Jo Bros have a new single on iTunes called 'Burnin' Up' and it's already number one on the iTunes Top Songs list just after 12 hours.

Who said they aren't talented? XD
And hot.
Unlike SOME people.

I want the O levels to be over like now. X(

I'm burning up for you BAYBEH!
I'd kiss you today if i got my hands on you.
Once it's over,
there's nothing we're not going to do. ;)

Collapsed.

2008-06-22T21:27:00.005+08:00

The Camp Rock Movie is on YouTube.
I can't watch.
BUT I WANT TO LIKE NOW!!!!!!!!!
Got work to do.

The Hannah Montana 3-D movie was bogus.
IT WASN'T 3-D!!!
BARELY.
Except for the drumstick.
The drumstick was cool.
Joe looks hot in skinny jeans ok?
Miley seemed almost off the whole concert except for 'Best of both worlds'.
What a pity.
Lord of the rings was Hot.

My sister doesn't have school tomorrow.
She's watching Camp Rock now.
Way to make me feel better.

Ben Romans is 27.
WTH.
Oh well.
Can't blame him for that.
The rest of the Click are all around 26 average except for Kyle.
Nit.
wit.

I've got a lot of stuff to do.
It's the first day tomrrow of the second semester.
GREAT.

Red bull, unfortunately i think i might need it tonight.
Sorry justina.

COULD MY LIFE GET ANY WORSE???!!!
SAVE ME SAVE ME SAVE ME!!!!!!

Taking five.

2008-06-19T16:51:00.002+08:00

I just had to post today.

Actually i'd throw in pictures if i wasn't feeling so lazy and uberly hopeless.

I was just watching a bit of the movie 'Taking Five' that stars the Click Five. But no Kyle, just Eric. Because it was premiered on Kids Central eons ago and i never ever knew about it, i didn't get to watch the whole thing, and apparently some parts were chopped off like the part where Gabby (Daniella Monet) kissed Manson (Joey Zehr).

*BREATHES*

HOKAY. So i was looking for the DVD online but i don't really think it is out yet therefore the searches were all terrribly inacccurate. Even HMV didn't have it so really, what were the chances of other shops having it. I'm still going to check Video Ezy anyway but because their interenet page has a problem searching for DVD's, looks like i have to do it, on foot. GREAT. Just what i need. I WANT THE DVD MAN!

The movie seems pretty good though i don't think it did very well, but it really seems like a nice movie, not just because i am a Click Five fan ok? It was kinda like a disney movie, but i did not expect the kidnapping part. At all. And again, somehow, just somehow, Joey was kinda blonde again, and Ben, was... emotional. But nice. :) And we didn't see much of Ethan or Joe, that probably explains why Ethan sounded unenthuciastic while talking about the movie to Seventeen mag.

I want to meet the Click Five! X(

And the Jo Bros! X(

I wanna move to America.

Well i don't know how i'll make it there cause there so many more people prettier and more talented than me.

I mean, i can't even tell a difference between and F and F#.

And i suck at the piano. X(

That sucks.

No, i suck.

Well at least i'm not blonde i suppose.

I wish the rebonding on my hair will grow out faster because i seriously look like a messed up mop.

Even blondes have beeter hair than me! X(

Now i sound as if i've got self-esteem issues.

BOY.

Some kinda life i have.

You got me on my knees, Jenny!

2008-06-16T09:23:00.006+08:00

Remember how i said i'd post when there's something REALLY interesting to talk about? Well this isn't exactly interesting but REALLY alarming.

Anyway, lat night at about 10.47, i took my dog out for a walk and i accidently hooked the leash to the wrong part of the collar, so when she yanked at it a broke free! I was like 'OMG!!! ALEX!!! SAPPHIRE ESCAPED!!!' And that sounded pretty stupid cause it sounded as if she was some major criminal. On with the story, i just dropped the leash on the ground, and started sprinting like shit. My sister than joined me than overtook me. DUH. We were both damned pissed because we had just bathed and we were going to go to bed soon and unfortunately enough, my mum just had to twist her ankle, carelessly. Because she couldn't control Sapphire on her walk early in the morning wearing crappy slippers.

About 5 mins later, there we were on Yio Chu Kang Road, my sister in platform like slippers (the one my mum tripped in) and me, in spaghetti straps and really short shorts running pass the bus stop and few Indian workers, looking completely retarded because our dog outran us. Then suddenly my dog started running on the road! I tell you. Like why the road? Not as if there are any cats there or something. Alex and i started calling her but she didn't listen. A car came and had to break and a bus came too! It was the 70 double deck ones so i was bloody freaked out of my mind. I mean well it was at night and it's quite hard to see. Thank goodness she's pretty big and white. Anyway after much honking, she ran back to the pavement and my sister caught up and sat on her. Seriosuly, she didn't squish her, but she just made us sprint 1km without warming up whatsoever! Obviously we were tired. In the end, my sister flagged a cab and took her home. Yes, doggie in a cab. The best part was that she looked extremely happy enjoying the air-con and i wanted to slap her for looking annoyingly happy and making us run like losers. But she's still a dog. What the dog.

My poppa had a good laugh this morning when he came back from flight. We got the 'See la! Who ask you never excercise! You got outran by your own dog!' Well actually she's momma's dog we weren't exactly keen but we took her anyway. Whatever pops. I bet she can totally outrun you too. XD

For those who know that i may be migrating, it's still probable. I'm not sure, my future seems just kinda undecided right now. I really want to go overseas and pursue my crazy dream as i've told some but i also really can't go cause Robin's here. That's making things really tough. Right now, i haven't really come to any decision yet and my dad's still deeply thinking about it. So i dont know... I don't really know anthing about the long-distance stuff, but i don't really want to think about it now... Well actually, it already feels that way because of O's and Penguins and such. :( Oh well, all i can do is hope... Sean, dancing, stars? I don't see it. :P I'll try my best not to move. :)

Je T'aime, Je T'aime, Je T'aime! You know that don't you? ;)

Thanks dot! You inspire me in more ways than one. I think french is sexy. :D