Hey whoever reads my blog!
I'm not in absolutely high spirits but i think i'll manage.

I just told my parents my results.
And well my dad i know he's upset but encouraging.
But knowing my mum she immediatly went into her 'I have so much to say!' nonsense.
Well at least she has something to say though it's not good and my legs will have scars.
The only other time she talks is when she wants to use her credit card or do anything (UGH) korean.
Yes i'm the only one in the family who retained.
I've accepted the fact.
I know she is going to go on later about how stupid i am and what a disgrace i am.
What can i do but sit down and listen...
To a person who only scolds me when i do something wrong.
The first thing would just be to scold.
For her maybe it doesn't work any other way.
But FYI, for it me doesn't work that way.
But what can i do?
Raise my fist in fury shouting about how you only bother when my results are bad or do something wrong?
I never do anything right isn't it?

Do you want to know why i gave up playing the piano?
Do you also want to know what it's like to have a very talented sister to match up to?
You say you want to learn to play the piano if you had the chance?
Sure go ahead.
See how easy it is to try tolerating people saying 'Oh that's a song you're playing? Why does it sound like it's in bit's and pieces?'
IT'S CALLED PRACTISING DOOSHEBAGS.
If you haven't realised.
I'm not my sister.
I can't play your KOREAN music by EAR OKAY GRANDMA?
As loving as you are.
I HATE IT WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN APPRECIATE MY EFFORT WHEN I'LL ACTUALLY PLAY FOR YOU.

Honestly i wonder what family i have when everything is so broken?
But a few days ago i realised that guardian angels do exist in times where you just feel like everything is crashing down on you...

Girls first:

Julaiha: Thank you for the words of encouragement. Even though i must say they are in a very nerdy way but it is also very mature and full of understanding making me feel very comforted. Love you!

Wen Xuan: Haha. You and your weird Er Hu. Thanks for trying to cheer me up and just like Julaiha and suggest ways in which i can improve. And offering to come over and study with me! :) I'm touched!

Chelsea: For crying with me and providing me with tissue!!! AND FOR BEING SO SUPERBLY PREPARED AND OPTIMISTIC FOR THIS. HAHA. Everything will be okay yea? I know it will be. We'll get through this together! Just don't leave school! :)

Josephine: DARLING! :D Thanks for always coming to me and hugging me when i was crying or sick like and crying along with us for no apparent reason! :P Your simple gesture just makes it all so much better!

Pirinitaa: Well waddaya know. Spongebob came to save me. :) Thanks for offering to help me especially whenever i am sick or look like i'm going to faint. And when you say you understand what i'm going through, i truly know you do.

CK: For hugging me and looking sooo blur. BUT CUTE. Even that made me feel like giggling! :)

Zi Hui: I BLAME YOU FOR MY CRYING YESTERDAY! Haha. XD BUt you know i love you right? Thanks for hugging me and knowing that the thought of leaving friends was even sadder than our results. :) Don't leave school ke yi ma? Wo hui xiang nian ni! X(

Pamela: Haha. For being and awesome daughter, and the Ít runs in the family.' thing. Like how awesome is that? :) Thanks for cheering me up tenfolds!!! Hai zi!!!

Elena: BABE!!! I owe you so much! From calling me to texting me, to offering to let me sleep and cry at your place! :) I LOVE YOU LOADS. When you spoke to me on the phone the previous night, you just calmed me down so much and i felt as if i had a third sister sitting next to me talking to me. All your 'Vicky's!' and hugs made me feel so insanely happy! :)

Xue Ying: For making me realise that there actually someone quite similar to me. And you made me feel so much better and also inspired me to not give up. :) And you're just really super nice la! :) Kind of like a bigger sis! Hehe.

Shu En: You waited for me!!! Which was quite unexpected! :) But i'm so eternally happy! You're the closest friend i have to a piece of MG home and having someone who understands the MG way and whatever, i'm super gald that you were around to cheer me up and understand how i feel. LOVE YOU! :)

Xiu Hui: For the unexpected offering of a shoulder after not being that close and all. :) I'm very touched by your kind offer! :)

Aticca: For your deep words of wisdom.*rubs chin* Haha. :)

To all the drama babes: FOR CARING ABOUT ME. :) I love you guys.

Boys:

Actro: You like kinda came out of nowhere like ASTROBOY. Haha. But thanks for being like so calm and relaxed all the time it kind of rubbed off on me. :) And your really weird and funny attempts at trying to cheer me up. It worked! :)

Naing Oo: LIKE OMG. HAHA. Thanks for always being so electrifyingly exciting anf funny! I always look forward to chinese to bitch with you so i forget all the other shit of the world. I love your Ýa's'and ÓMGs!' and you never fail to brighten my day when you call me Baby V!!! XD

JJ: Hey! I've got so much to thank you for. I think i owe you more than just wish coupons! HAHA. I'm so eternally grateful that you showed up at NTU and talked things over with me. Like really a lot. I don't think i've told anyone that much nonsense about home in such a humorous but serious way. It allevaited the pain and your cute face made me feel like laughing every 5 seconds! It's not a bad thing really. I really liked it. XD Thanks for your funny, adorable and sometimes practical suggestions. AND ALSO for following me around everywhere like a body guard till i got home. I knew i wasn't alone. You're INCREDIBLY SUPERBLY sweet!!! XOXO. HEE!



It's been an insane and emotional ride for me this week.
To everyone else who made it so much better.
Thank you sooo much. :)
Right now i feel like personally giving all of you a hug.
But i'm stuck in this stupid home of mine and well.
I reckon it'll be this way for a while. :(
Feel free to come visit me though!
Hint hint. ;)
And congrats to the people of 09S03 who did make it up one step ahead!
Good on you!

I hope the rest of the days this year won't be so tormented.
Knowing you guys have my back and He is always with me. :)
Just one prayer away.
See you guys!
Hopefully before the penguins get back,
I'll be waterproof. :)