Hey everyone!
I'm back from boys over flowers land!
HAHA.
Eww.
Other than being bombarded by korean shit left right centre.
OMG.
I seriously LOVED the weather.
It was AWESOMELY COOL and the mist was so COOL.
Never experienced it before so yea.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE WEATHER DID FOR MY FACE AND HAIR.
Wonderful i tell you.
HAHA. XD
Anyway the trip was fun!
I made new friends.
Edison, Symphony and Jun Wei.
Haha.
Pretty cool people they were. :)
And quite funny.
EVERYBODY, MY NAME IS BERN.
BERN. XD
HAHAHA.
SO random okay?
Out of no where Jun Wei just like pronounces it.
HE STOLE MY NAME EVEN.
To play chess.
WTH.
And of course melanie being melanie.
Ditched me for the boys...
SIGH.
HAHA.
ANYWAYS.
The tour guide was super nice and super cute too!
Her laugh is DA BOMB.
Seriously.
It sounds a bit like breathless and forced laughter but it's just like that.
SO CUTE. XD
But my daddy found it annoying.
And mel went high on laughter.
HOO BOY. XD
OMG.
And some weirdos tried to touch my teddy bear...
MOLEST I SWEAR.
IDIOTS!!!!!!!! X(
My poor teddy.
Oh well.
I have so much more to tell.
But i'm kind of lazy to type.
And i have a second paragraph.

You know on the plane on the way home.
I saw the movie 'He's just not that into you.'
And i was wondering.
Why the hell i didn't watch that movie on the way up...
But i guess it would've destroyed my trip a little.
Anyway.
I was just thinking about it.
And i feel quite stupid and embarrassed.
Cause i think i got some signs.
But i didn't get it then...
Until i saw the movie.
Nevertheless the movie also gave me a lot more hope and strength.
With a very strong prominent female lead.
I feel a bit like Scarlett Johansson's and Ginnifer Goodwin's character.
A combination.
That with all the mistakes made.
I'm a lot closer. :)
Well at least i think i am, and i'll just learn from this.
When i immediately called after touching down.
I kind of knew and sensed something different already.
So i guess i was just waiting for it to come.
And it did yesterday.
So while i was away...
Those messages, their value, and everything special, to me, just plummeted deep into the earth.
Gone.
Just like that.
What happened was wrong.
Everything.
And to the 3rd party.
I'm truly honestly sorry for everything.
I really really didn't want to, though i liked it and wanted to, cause i knew it was wrong.
If i ever meet you one day.
Hopefully i can apologize completely and sincerely.
I am very very heartbroken.
Especially yesterday.
No doubt about that.
But i still am me. :)
Cause well i still have a hell lot of time. :)
I'm really okay.

I did call you this morning.
But you didn't answer.
But i kept my promise.
I can't tell you how i'm honestly feeling.
I may be telling the truth or i could be lying.
You won't know now.
That sexy vampgirl.
She's not here anymore.
It's a bit difficult to persuade her to come out.
She's quite scared now...
However I'll be there if you need me.
To hear you out and talk to.
I'll always be by your side and be a good friend.
But it's just not going to be the same.
Cause of course you're still so important to me...
I'm still your friend. :)
After all the scolding.
From bills, to just lectures...
I think i'm tired and i've learnt my lesson.
I don't think i should get all this right now for being just willing to do everything for someone.
I shall wait...
And actually be patient till i find out for sure if both feelings will be true...
I'm sorry...
It was a very grave mistake that i actually now i think i regret.
I should have just shut up from the start.
I just made you confused and everything...
Because of my silly assumption.
Please please don't do so much for me anymore to that extent till it feels as if 'we' are like that, if not i'll feel worse.
And you're just not supposed to...
I'm gonna make sure i, totally, forget this crazy awesome feeling.

For a while at least...



JO JO, MELLYBABE, LENA, ELI-CHAN, FRANNYPOO... ... WATCH OUT!!!
I'M COMING OVER MAYBE AND PREPARE A BUCKET!!! XD ...



And i'll be back.