I feel like i'm going to explode into a million pieces.

My parents think i'm not troubled by my results.
It's been 8 days.
Only 2 people to realise how stressed and worried i am.

I remember my mum say, "I'm proud of you cause you did better than your prelims" on the day i got my results.
I was crying.
A few days later she says, "I've nothing to be proud of, I'm so disappointed..."
She cries.
But i can only cry in my room.

My dad, when people ask about my results he says, "Anyway life moves on, there's still time to change."
But at home it's another 'Are you proud of your results?' talk.
I TRIED.
I really did.
If life moves on, why does he keep coming back to the same old thing?
I get it already.
Am i supposed to cry 24/7?
Of course i'm upset, I didn't expect THIS.
But just because i look like i'm not upset, i'm not upset?

I'm so tired.
I'm so beat up.
My heart feels so heavy it's going to fall into my stomach.
This is worse than the O's.
My mum's disappeared into korean oblivion.
My dad thinks we don't care about our future.
What am i supposed to say when i'm scolded then?
I'd like them to tell me.
Cause they'll always have something to say to what we say.
It's like :
WE'RE ALWAYS WRONG.
THEY'RE ALWAYS RIGHT.

I'm trying SO HARD not to get angry...
But...
I don't know if i can take this much longer.