Oh gosh, i woke up feeling pretty terrible today. And it all started with the strawberry yoghurt. Haa~ Oh well. My day was really boring really. I spent half the day thinking and the other half... stoning.

I just came back from Father JJ's 10th ordaination anniversary dinner and it was pretty ok. I didn't really like the food, but what was worse, I WAS BORED TO DEATH. TO DEATH I TELL YA'! My sister again with angeline were in a world of their own and i was sitting there, stoning, in space. Daniel had to wave at me twice. I'm sure he looked very bored too. :( Then i started thinking again.

I always feel so lonely in church you know, like there's no one there for me... Then i start thinking about my school friends and i feel so much like crying because i was really wishing they were there with me, at that very time, and very place. When i leave school, i'm never going to ever them. Though they aren't catholics, i still love them all the same and i'd never trade them for anything. Never.

Just a few days ago, i found that my dad had made plans to migrate. I really couldn't believe it. I thought he put it off once and for all. I don't know, I really don't want to go. My MG sisters and Robin, they mean the world to me. I was just getting it all right... And now I find out that there's a probability i'll have to let them go. Besides that, there's not much here for me i guess. Everyone in church appreciates my sister more so she'll be a greater loss to them. In time they'll say 'Alex had a sister?' You don't need to pretend take care of me really, i think i'm better off without you.

But right now, I don't want to go... Please! Unless i can take them with me... Please...

I'm waiting for that day...

I can completely relate to Mitchie's situation in Camp Rock. Actually, i feel just like her. That girl, and that song... But it seems like no one has faith in me, and what i want to be. Although hope is bleak, i won't give up. I won't...

This is me...