I was just wondering how people can be so judgemental they want this but are particularly looking for that. On friday the whole class was talking about American Idol and something i couldn't help but overhear was the Jonas Brothers performance. I agree it definitely it wasn't their best, but they tried. I could barely hear Joe sing much but i kinda guessed he was sick after touring so much. Nick too didn't look all too good. I'm not trying to stand up just for the Jonas Brothers but i'm just being frank, how perfect do you expect people to be? They really are human beings after all aren't they? I just don't get it sometime. You perfect people. I'm feeling terrible about my paper, my results to come and the fact that Val Chia was exclaiming 'I ROCK!' for reasons our class people know. Val, putting this nicely, I feel like stangling you. You are so NOT helping. I'm feel like a failure. I'm trying but it's not there yet. I'm studying. STUDYING!!! I can't expect results immediatly but i want them. Now. NOW. NOW!!! I need them. I got nothing else... Nothing achieved to be proud of. Pathetic creature. Eli-chan and Justina thanks for taking me out for lunch today. I was on the brink of crying in the bus, but you guys really made the sadness go away. :) Love you guys. Now, tomorrow. I scared of you tomorrow. When the tears flow down my eyes, will they cry with me or say 'Who cares. I did better.' It's becoming that way. Will they look at me and say, 'This child is mine.' or do they just walk away? I want to go. Away, where everything is okay and O level scripts don't have bloody barcodes...




I feel so unworthy... this person that you see, are you sure you are in love with me?... Maybe i'll join the stars tonight, they seem to shine so bright...