I thought the last post would be my last. Well i was wrong. :D I felt like the major sinner on sunday cause i bought much stuff! REALLY MUCH. But i was really happy with what i bought. :D Haha. Extra lesson with lao shi was weird today. Like weird.
Lao shi: Li ya!
Me: Huh?
Lao shi: Are you really in sec 4?
Me: (What sort of question is that??!!) Erm. Yea, then?
Lao shi: Whenever i look at you it looks like you're supposed to be sec 2 but you skipped a couple of grades.
Me: Erm.......................... (Really, what was i supposed to say?) *Francesca and daniella were in fits. Especially frannypoo. :P
Cassie: Well it's good to look young.
Well i guess it is good to look young. :)
Lao shi: Oh! Yes. I forgot to mark attendance.
She marks everyone's attendance but marks one wrongly but still puts it back in the file.
She notices the mistake and corrects it but on her transparent file instead of the paper.
Grace: Lao shi! You're marking the file! Not the paper! (In the midst of frantic laughter.)
The next minute, we're all laughing like insanely retarded freaks. It was really THAT funny.
Lao shi: Li ya! Do you have any questions?
Me: Erm, no?
Lao shi: Li ya! How many marks do you hope to get?
Me: At least a B3?
Lao shi: HUH??!! Li ya!!! You really have to work hard ok? Earlier one girl said she wanted to get A1. (Like i don't want to? I'm being reasonable.) You have to at least study chinese 3 hours each day now!
Me: (My turn.) HHHUUUHHH?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is clear evidence i STINK at chinese. Oh well, i'll try my best.
I wonder what's going to be our turnout tomorrow with the 4M revolution going on. Can't wait! XD
I can't take a day without you here...
Exactly one week away from chinese prelims. OH NO. I'm so not ready, lest for O'levels! Mid years are also two weeks away. OH SNAP. It's all getting tmth. As if sexual reproduction in humans isn't complicated enough?! WHY IN THE WORLD MUST WE BE SO COMPLICATED ANYWAY??!! Caffeine no longer helps. I fell asleep while waiting for Miss Yang today. And when i woke up, she was like, 'Good afternoon princess.' Whatever Miss Yang. I shall make chemistry painful for her! MUAHAHAHAHAHA. XD Kendra and franny never come! I had no one to moo again! :( Kennymoo and frannypoo! :P Haha. Good for you guys. You didn't miss much at all. My boy wonder! I MISS YOU!!! I haven't talked to you for a whole week!!!!!!!!! X( Gosh i sound like a freak. But really, i miss you many many. :( And sandra scolded me for... about... gabriel. WTH. She was like, 'I can't believe you dumped him, he's so shuai!' I was like, 'He did quite horrible things (she doesn't know any of it) and he doesn't seem to work hard... and try, even for me.' And her response was, 'So what? Does that matter?'. Now i know, sandra wants to marry a shuai guy. JUST shuai, then she'll be satisfied. I wanted to tell her to date him herself but that would be mean but i didn't really care about what she said cause i had someone else on my mind. :) I think this is gonna be my last post for a while till after mid years. I have quite a bit of unfinished business to attend to. :) All the best to everyone! We can do it 4M! ;)
I JUST HAD TO write on my blog today because today is the first day of my sec 4 life where lao shi didn't, i repeat,
DIDN'T pick on me.
MIRACLE. Yes, it really is. After all the: LI YA! ZHANG KAI YAN JING!!! my name wasn't heard today. WOW. WOWDIEWOWDIEWOWDIEWOW!!! Oh yea, SIM SHAO JEAN!!! THE JONAS BROTHERS ARE SO NOT OVERRATED!!! THEY'RE THE MOST TALENTED BROTHER ACT IN THE ENITRE SOLAR SYSTEM AND BEYOND OKAY???!!! THEY'RE HOT!!! AND THEY WILL ROCK THE WORLD!!! XD (Being the over enthu fan that i am.)
Hello! I'm ever so thankful my dad's operation was ok. Thanks you Lord for taking care of him. :) How about starting of with yesterdays events? It was gabriel's birthday yesterday. Happy birthday! :) Anyway, the minute I got there I had two pair of eyes that were staring at me. Neither one I knew personally, but more of as gabriel's girlfriend and gabriel's girlfriend's good friend. Gosh. Engilsh fail. ANYWHO, how could you expect me not to be annoyed when they were staring. HELLO? I'm not alien you know? Ever heard of the term homosapiens??? Ok enough about them. The party was TRE-BORING. I hate barbecue's, can't complain about that, I had barely anything to do besides eat because i was pretty much being daoed and the best part was the birthday boy was playing tennis while he had a party going on. Hello? Your party much? I think I wasted a good solid 3 hours when I could have probably been doing something more productive at home. Sorry. But i really didn't have any fun AT ALL. School was school. Again i felt uberly stupid making so many careless mistakes for our chem redox quiz. PURELY CARELESSNESS. Chinese oral was the highlight of the day. Sandra the munchkin was giving me tips for the oral. And telling me which lao shi to avoid. HAHA. Only one lao shi, and UNFORTUNATELY, she had to be my examiner. WHOOPEE!!! Sandra was giving me the 'OMG. You're so FREAKKIN' UNLUCKY!!!' look outside the hall. And the topic for discussion was even better!!! Topic: A lot of teens are using the blog nowadays, why do you think that is so? Talk about AWESOMELY BAD LUCK. Well on the plus side it WASN'T about recycling or global warming. Yawn.
Conversed in chinese (VERY SIMPLIFIED).
Lao shi: Teens nowadays often blog and they spend a lot of time on it. Why do you think that is so?
Me: Erm. (BAD MOVE) I have a blog too. (TOO? FREAKKIN HELL WHO?) I think blog's are where people wish to express their heartfelt moments and want other people to read it and emphathize with them.
Lao shi: Why do you think teens want others to know about their life so publicly?
Me: (Stares at her blankly for about 10 secs) Erm. (DOUBLE BAD MOVE) Because they want others to understand them better because maybe no one else gives much attention to them? Some people have views about quite controversial topics but are afraid to bring it up. But this creates a lot of damage as it may appear in the newspaper? (CRAP)
Lao shi: So it will hurt people?
Me: Yea?
Lao shi: So why do you have a blog? Because it is a trend?
Me: Yea. And I don't like to write my hands get tired? Diaries waste paper and are troublesome. (DOOMED)
Laoshi: So why do you think teen prefer to blog rather than tell their friends directly about their problems?
Me: (Why did it have to be that question?!) Because sometimes some situations are too embarassing or sometimes on may be shy to tell her friend. Then, (That, was in english. OH NO.) sometimes a person is too shy to relate her problem to her friend cause she's afraid her friend will avoid or be weirded out by her and eventually abandon her. Crap. (I ACTUALLY MUMBLED IT.)
Lao shi: Thank you.
Me: Thank you. (Trying desperately not to laugh)
DEAD MEAT.
I'm feeling really horrible today. I could cry for entire minute. I can barely walk. Due to 5 items, 2.4km run and excessive self-training. I have to slide down the stairs. Literally, on my bum. Not just that my dad was just admitted to the hospital for reasons i will not disclose, and has to undergo a minor operation now... Lord, please hear my silent cry tonight...
First of all, I would say that i am an uber idiot for leaving my wallet plus thumbdrive in the sports complex. I pray to God that someone nice will find it and return it. I JUST got my thumbdrive two weeks ago on this very day after losing the last one I had in sec 2. Fortunately my ez-link card is in there and also unfortunately if no one returns it, I'M DOOMED. DOOMED!!!!!! Lord please have mercy on your child who just had her five items test today. Speaking of my 5 items test, i think my new shoes did wonders for me. In all my four years, i reached 44cm for my sit and reach, but 1 stinkin cm away from an A. YES. An A. In all my years i've never gotten an A for sit and reach and i had my chance to, but NOOO, Mr Ong didn't allow me to try again. Moo him. beides everything was cool. A's. :) MOO MR ONG!!! Nevermind, at least he's nice. :) And i was talking gabriel yesterday, boy, he hasn't changed. He still blamed himself even though i was partially to blame and he was too. Still in the convo, he blamed me for everything and then said 'But still, it's my fault'. What in the world. I do recognise I did blame him for some things but now he's just exaggerating. A lot. I really don't like talking about it anymore but he keeps bringing it up. So i just was nice cause yea, nothing good comes out of arguing and blaming. :) He thinks he's the only one who's understood what he's gone through, but he's not the only one. I understood how he feels but he just is... the same. I don't know, but i can't see any change. I'm really sorry... but it's difficult, the things we went through. Too many times. But maybe it's just me. :) I don't understand everything and i'm sure a person's actions usually has good motive. Eveyone has their own niceness i'm sure. :) It's just how you see it i guess. Well i'm off for tuition now. E maths! Whoopee.
I threw away the last memory of you today.
Open the door to my heart,
there it no longer stays.
For a time I refused to believe,
I knew you didn't deceive me.
The sinful touch of your lips,
poisoned me on the inside,
and kept me in your intoxicating embrace.
And I was a fool,
who'd thought I was the one to change you.
The scent of that blossoming flower,
my trust you have disowned.
It's time for me to walk away,
And don't you ever tell me,
'Don't go, please stay'
It should no longer be that way.
I turn around and I see his warm familiar face...Standing alone on the ballroom floor,
then I see you stumble through the door.
You look at me with those gentle eyes,
and I feel my tears slowly start to dry.
Taking my hand you waltz me away,
to our song that will never cease to play.
Your enchanting ways your loving embrace
will forever put a smile on my face.
Draw me close, closer to you,
this is just the way I always want to feel.
So let's dance, dance late into the night,
because the stars are shining for us tonight.
Close your eyes and you'll see,
it's just you and me dancing in this dream.
Hmm. Another tuition day. Anyway I went for a drama night with my mum cause qi-sama fell sick. :( Get well qi-sama. Yea. My mum followed but she was really nice yesterday. I'm ever so thankful she didn't tease me or anything like that or have anything bad to say. Real sweet mum. :) I really enjoyed myself last night except for the part where Darren comes to snap a photo of me and ... Anyway. It was a really good show, entertaining I must say though i didn't understand much since i missed the good part. AND i'm sure i must have been VERY entertaining to many people there. No complains though. :) I'm so happy you invited me robin. It was really really sweet of you. :) The car ride was interesting wasn't it? Hong-kong accent vs. Erm... Unknown made up combination accent? :D
I want to sing, dance, act, be what I want to be... Why don't you have any faith in me?!
It's crazy how wrong you can be about a person, you think they're one thing but they turn out to be the exact opposite.PTM today. I can't even tell you how horrible i feel. My mum verbally fought with my lit teacher. And i was on the brink of crying. I was so thankful dorothy was there to make me smile with her lame jokes, that was just perfect cure. :) I used to look up to my lit teacher in sec 1, now all i think of her, is as the person who put me so down, i feel like i wasn't meant to even understand the word literature. I'm not terribly good at literature, but i'm trying. She seriously didn't have to so bluntly put it to me that i was weak i should drop the subject? Why in the world should I? My mum was terribly furious with her that her face was completely red. I swear. (I don't mean swear swear) I feel absolutely stupid for letting this happen in the first place. I if i wasn't so hirrble at the subject, my mum need not even see her. I'm probably i'm going to get hell from her from now on. But i don't care. I detest her. I don't want to, but i detest her with every fibre of my being. I'm sorry it had to be this way, but you're terribly wrong about what you said.
I want to hold you and cry on your shoulder.
But it's only for a moment. If you were my heart you'd know just how pissed i am. Yes, it was raining today. And of course i love the rain. School was peachy but i had to get stuck in the rain on the way home and i got drenched, COMPLETELY. Not to mention, i had one and a half hours of chem tuition just now after a maths lessons in school. Way to kill my brain cells. I couldn't talk on the ride home. I was boiling on the inside. I still am absolutely angry at my mum for putting me up for chem tuition. I shut my mouth, just nodding at whatever she said and then it came. My mum's usual 'WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOUR MOUTH?' Note to self: I had not done anything wrong. I hadn't ansewered back neither was i rude. I was simply trying to control my anger. If her reaction implied that she wants me to speak up, she'll have tables and chairs flying in her direction. No biggie. Easy to do. Of course i don't want to be angry at her, but i can't help it. And i can never rebel if not i'll just get another slap in the face. I feel like crying, i feel as if i'm bleeding hate. I want to sleep and hope the anger subsides till next week, i hope it rains tonight...
Happy April's FOOL! Yay. I nearly died during Pe today, that just goes to show unfit I am. And i just ate a whole bag twisties. OMJ. Dieting? Should it be an option? NADA. KENDRA, YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DIET. PEOPLE WHO DIET ARE NOT WORTHY TO BE MY FRIENDS WHEN I'M TRYING TO PUT ON WEIGHT. XD Seriously. I am quite happy today. :) I had a nice text message convo and school wasn't to tiresome i suppose. I'm going to bed early! Happy day! Goodnight and goodbye.
