I'm going to do this really quick cause my eyes are failing me and my brain tells me to stop killing more of its cells. I was really really annoyed with how basketball was played during PE yesterday. I was really looking forward to it and in the end it spoilt the whole day. MISS SOO! YOU ABANDONED ME TO DIE UNDER THE BASKETBALL NET!!! I'm really sorry if i looked like was fuming and being all childishly angry. It's just that basketball is AWESOME to me. And i just had to see joe's beau on the bus. Great. Maybe i should take 156 less. But interhouse bowling today was fun! Besides getting to leave classes a bit early. It was super duper fun! Zhi yun, your powder ball thing is really powederful! Remember to bless the ball the next time! Okokok. I really got to go now. My eye is swelling. Ouch.

I felt incredibly like a guai failure today. Sounds really weird. But yes. I was really very guai doing all my work in school and listening like an angel even though i was especially tired today. And i went to mac's at AMK to have lunch and studied my lit! Actually, i have been super guai this year so far. Neat! Now to the failure part. I still can't get over the uber careless mistakes in my a math test and my e math test today when the teacher deprived us of five whole precious minutes! You wouldn't believe how angry Meera was. Well everyone was. Naturally. When i was in the bus today, my pre-JC fear came back. Boys. Unavoidable. Not that i don't talk to any but i HARDLY do. I only can bring myself to talk to a few. I'm so not ready for that. Also, i've been feeling increasingly lonely these days, i'm not sure why... And as if i want to be alone sometimes. Gosh, girls are really compicated. It feels good to have peace and quiet nowadays, after a rage of adrenaline last year. But it's definately good to get the adrenaline going on and off. I wish i could be a kid again. I would have gone out to play instead of watching tv. I miss going out to play in my old neighbourhood. :( Well, at least i still have my bunny with me! And there's PE tomorrow! Yipee! No handball please! There are bound to be casualties.

Today. Was quite horrible, i've been crying so much over my a maths test which i could have scored full marks! I felt like crying in school but i couldn't, hate the attention. Thank goodness my chem O'level SPA wan't too bad, though i got a really weird formula of MgCl^10. I can't exactly put it in formula form. Kendra wasn't in school today. I miss her. :( I feel quite sad and lonely today... plus empty. Don't know why. And also my parents are on bad terms with each other today and are all angry and stuff. Crap. I'm going to hug my blue bunny to sleep tonight, cause i think he's all i have for company right now..

Hopefully, i'll get a better head start this year. I've been stressing my butt out, as you can see i haven't posted for a while. I promised myself i shall study hard and aim for VJ. Yes. I must, i must. :) Studying really hard, hopefully i'll be on the news next year. (YEAH RIGHT!) Oh my gosh. I'm so scared of boys in JC. Shit. Tomorrow is my chem O'level SPA and i really shouldn't be up this late, but anyway... I'm really loathing SOME people now who have a day off from school tomorrow while i'm stuck in school. Where's the justice in that? I've officially got the Obsessive Jonas Disease!!! I'm so high, it feels like i'm flying!!! Yay!!! They're so hot!!! Burning my eyes!!! AAAHHH!!! And i can still recall two weeks ago whe isabel pulled off the long jump with her shoe flying off. I'm sorry. It's just too hard to forget. :D I'm really happy but so far and really down at points of time too, but i think i know everything will be ok. My dad's been really great. I love him sooo much. And my sister's been annoying as usual, but i still love her for making me feel so stupid about doing a certain something which i TOTALLY regret doing. I'd done anything thing to stop that from happening. YATA! (You wish i could bend space and time.) I completely HATE myself for doing that. I could just slap myself a millions of times! Oh well, i can't change the past... OK. (Here comes the emo part.) Well at least there always still hope there for me. :) I really want to hug that person so much. I so hate gossipers. You totally made my day today! When don't you ever? :) You never ever fail to make me smile, i love that so much about you. You always spin my gloomy day right around, i can never thank you enough for that. You give me so much hope. :) I think i **** you. (Fill in the blanks) You're just ever so dear to me. Sometime i wonder who'd i'd be without you and all my friends. I love you all so much. All of my friends have seen me through that period, thank you so much. You see past me, and remain my friend. Honestly you guys have absolutely no idea how much your friendship means to me. I always feel so alone, but i know i always have you guys to count on. I never want that friendship to fade. I can never get through this year without all of you. I'm holding on to all of you and never letting you go, never again. (Here comes the spoiler.) And sandra and francesca, please please please spare me your arguments on whose laughter sounds stupid! It's killing me! As a matter of fact, they sound the same. :D Gotta sleep now, mummy's nagging! Uh-oh!